The guilt...

Today marks the 10th day of Ramadhan the holy month, how time really blast past us by each passing day…I ask myself what hav I done during these past 10 days of fasting???..nothing!!!..i’ve yet done anything to take advantage of this very holy month…maybe one of the reasons is because I’m on leave from fasting n praying..yet I still feel the guilt of not taking the opportunity to utilize the month to my limits….my dear atleast as much as he can, does try to make room for terawih prayers..me???I hope when im able to perform my fast n prayers again..god will guide me back on track n give me strong will to do a little extra in this month...with only 20 days left..

My absence from this blog my dear friends is due to the hectic schedule I’ve been juggling with..my work..my preparation..my fiancĂ©..Everything has been sooo stressful..I see myself snapping on a regular basis nowadays (not that I’m proud of it!)..those close to me..please bear wif my undue typhoon. I just cannot tolerate when ppl try to maneuver my plan according to their preference when I do all the ground work..and for god’s sake..it’s my event..if it does not turn out nice..atleast I won’t blame others!!!!..the tense has turned me into a snappy MONSTER…my usual self is where I’d be considerate n flexible…that part of me seems to have crept behidn closed doors..i think it'll appear back into me only after my Big Day I guess…

Sometimes I feel the guilt of having rows with my parents..I just wish thy’d be more understanding n see things thru my perspective so that a lot more can be done..i hope whatever the outcome..everything goes accordingly and all will be happy…