depressingly bored....

It's a saturday..n im bored to death...my husband left me at my SIL..wif no one at home..SIL is out wif her best pal from JB...hubby n all of the related clan went to Jln Pasar to buy stuff for their MME preparation...while i feel soo bored n alone...its not as if if its been hours..i thk he left me at abt 3pm...i was watching desprate hsewives season 3 on DVD wen i had to go to the toilet...wen i returned i clumsily pressed a button on the remote n the tv is now in the black n white dots mode...tried pressing a number of buttons but it did'nt work..so ths results to why im here writing a post in my blog...

i wanted to go to OU since its so near..wanted to checkout the maternity pants at motherclub..but it's a weekend n i dread having to go alone..coz i know parking wud be a bummer...wanted to checkout the IKEA sale too but again the issue wud be the same...

My hubby is soo into his MME preparation....(in case u don't know MME stands for MERDEKA MILLENIUM ENDURANCE RACE) he's not the driver but he's the manager of the team...the drivers are my BIL, my hubby's cousin n my BIL cousin...they made it 3rd two years twice so now aiming for the top spot...

Life for my husband evolves around ths MME thg...not that he's completely abandoned me...he still does his share of hse chores...make sure i eat..tucks me in at night..but i know more than half of his concentration is on ths thg...

Im not saying i don't support him...i really do..i know he likes doing ths..just that sometimes i feel left out in his priority list....i wish he cud accompany me shopping for my maternity wear with much enthusiatic emotion as he we're for his racing stuff....im xpecting my first baby..n im out of my normal day attire...but i dread having to go to places w/o him...every weekend will b spent at SIL...i hav to manage doin stuff on my own till he settles...sometimes on weekdays too..by the time we get home im half asleep...

Maybe im just being emotional...but im lonely..very lonely rite now....i wish ths baby wud be out now so that atleast i hav somebody to talk too...

30 years together...

Me n my lover went back to JB for the weekend, twas my parents 30th anniversary so I forked out my life savings cuz my pay day was a week away n treated them alongside with the rest of our small clan to Hi-tea at Hyatt Regency…I did’nt know that Hi-teas in other states were cheap as compared to the ones in KL…of course the spread was not that much, but than again..if it were otherwise, as if lah terlarat nak choke on all of the food…

Nway, 30 years of marriage…I know some of u guys parents have made it thru more years..but just thk of the fragile state of marriages nowadays..what makes most marriage in the generations b4 work as compared to today’s marriage….

Back then there were no mobile, internet to stay in touch…if a couple were separated for a while…letters were the connecters…n yet they manage the conflicts..trust n shun from any source of betrayal… couples nowadays hav the freedom to meet n date on a regular basis..can hav dinners n curfew’s were a lot more flexible…I remember mom saying that she was only allowed out on her own after Form 6..that was like at the age of 18…n at what age r kids allowed out these days??..12, 13 maybe??..my grandfather was a very-very strict man..all his kids must be home to perform maghrib prayers together…no xcuse…

Parents nowadays just let the TV blare during maghrib…so there goes the amount of respect for prayer time…I believe we r living in a world of material, where entertainment, material possession,wealth & the social status is something that is upmost important…being successful is what most people crave for even if their family institute fails…

For us..owning a designer bag, driving a good car n being able to send our kids to the best day care or schools is an achievement..but wen I thk of it..my mum does not own even one premier designer bags…nor will she ever fork her money to do so..she still drives her 1999 Wira A/B which she bought cash…only has 2-3 paris of shoes..mainly black in color..she still has no collection of jewellary except for what she’s wearing..despite the fact that she made it to the top in her career eventhou not exactly to the no. 1 spot in RCJ… all her pay is for her..herself..no commitment... no bills to pay..lets compare that to her only daughter…has a number of bags..one or two designers, has better jewellary than her, drives a car that mom n dad put a nice deposit for, living in mums hse in KL, has numerous pairs of shoes, has endless credit card bills to pay..has to pay for petrol, study loan bla..bla..bla, expecting a baby in a few months time..n is nowhere near achieving career success …

Maybe if we lessen our aim on achieving material procession n social status we might be able to balance our family n career in hope that our relationship will last till the end…maybe if we pay more attention to God Almighty will we live peacefully n thgs will fall in the right places..maybe we might not even hav to fork our money for our kids education..what makes our kids different from those who can make it into National Uni…n does having a degree abroad make them more of a better person than us? Do all of them hav a happy life? Look around n u’ll find the answer…its’s not a sin to splurge if we can afford nice stuff for our family..but I belive to make it through years-years of marriage is to balance everything….it may be easier said than done..but if our parents can.why can’t we?..I hope n pray that my relationship will last till alam akhirat..insyallah..n all of my friends marriage/relationship will too…what we need to find is that BALANCE in life…so good luck to u guys n myself also..hopefully 30 years from now we will be with the same partner n living modestly but most importantly happily…

The Alligator Cramps

I’ve been suffering from leg cramps aka simpul biawak for two nights in a row..n It occurs twice every night…It hurts badly…I’ve tried applying Counterpain before bed..but its not much of a help…Can anyone give me tips…I can’t imagine waking up every day to this pain till I deliver..i know it’s common for expectant mothers to experience ths..but can’t anythg be done to prevent it..my hubby will eventually crack if waken by my scream of pain every night….

A night at the movies...



So I finally managed to watch TRANSFORMERS last night…n what a movie it was..full of anticipated action..enough to receive applauds from the audience when it ended..its not soo much of the plot that made the movie fantastic…I admire the graphics n art of making these autobots seem real..well it worked for me..(to the extent I imagined the autopay machine wud transform..upon me paying the ticket!!,,,kekekek (must be my baby’s imagination..)


Of the cast im not soo much of the Shia La Beouf fan…I did drool on Josh Duhamel thou..yum..yum.!! N it was not so much of a surprise when hubby pointed out Megan Fox was hot….if he said otherwise id better start worrying!!!.hehehe…nway I really enjoyed the movie n I believe so did the rest of the clan that went with us…as im not really a movie addict..i wonder when will my next outing to the movies be?…

Me n hubby stayed at my SIL hse in TTDI last nite…n how thankful I am that I got to hav a little xtra Zzzzzzzz since I don’t have to be out in the traffic as early as usual…

CAREER DISORIENTATION...

I want to own a magazine store… im bored to death with my current work..(read: Bosan tahap GABAN!!)

Yesterday I had an interesting conversation with a friend…or shud I say distant..distant relative… apparently her sister just opened a magazine store/ corner at one of the famous malls in Damansara..wif under RM100 k capital…within two months of operation..she’s managed to almost break even!!!…Woweeee…bestnya…thou it is hardwork n it takes long-long hours..but atleast it’s hers..n she’s merely 24!!…

So me brangan-brangan..bestnya if it was me..heheheh anyone care to join me as partners?

Hari Keluarga

Pada hari minggu yang lepas..saya bersama suami menghadiri Hari Keluarga Jabatan saya di hotel yg hampeh Le Paris Resort aka Costa Rica Apartment Port Dickson…di sana kami telah melepak dan bersantai, kami juga telah menghadiri acara kemuncak Hari Keluarga itu iaitu jamuan makan malam yang bertemakan warna hitam dan merah..pada acara cabutan bertuah…saya telah memenangi penyedut hampagas yg sgt comel..nama nya pun icute…terima kasih bnyk2 sbb kami mmg tiada alat elektronik ini…





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