Updates...

ok..i wish to update..but the thing is nothing really pumps up my blog adrenaline now.. everything is soo monotonous...i have S**it load of work to be done..lets just leave it as that..

On the brighter side of things..My padawan will be ONE the 4th...oh my..how time flies..n his not a baby anymore...althou im living in denial as Im soo used to calling him "Baby..hav u eaten..u want susu..Baby nak sleep?..." yes ur mama is still hoping u wont grow up soo fast..I clearly remembered the stressfull phone calls to my buddies asking? "does this constant crying ever stop??" "do they nurse like every hour???" hehhehhe..gone r those days..n to those expecting thier first..The answers are "YES..gradually the constant crying n making u feel u wanna hurl up n just die in the closet will go away..."

Insyallah if #2 comes..(Which is not in the near future..so don't get all hype ok..I still have my Pregnancy weight..duh!!) Ill be better prepared..heheh..

N with his age turning 1, alhamdulillah..I will pass the one year mark of exclusively Breastfeeding my son..EXCEPT for twice the time I had to be away on a course..which till now I feel the guilt of having to supplement him due to my dumbness in not stocking my EBM during my confinement days..(thats wat u call cetek ilmu..hehhe) Im not here to boast or any of the sort..but its a life achievement for me..the best gift I can give my son..hopefully it will be of use in future....


There will be no major celebrations for my padawan..because I dont think its necessary..afterall what does he know about birthdays..but i'll definately buy a cake for fun to mark the day..(to those who do celebrate thier childs one year old birthday..pls don't get offended...me n hubby just feel that a party wont be necessary for now but i respect other ppls reason in having one..)

On the 8th..it'll be our anniversery...our 2nd..ye..baru 2 years married...n it falls spot on Raya Haji..a dual celebration..last year I was in my 4th day of Confinement..so I guess no romantic dinner of the sort..probably go to sembahyang Raya sama2..romantic gak tu...for those who know my man personally will know Romantic does not exist in his vocabulory...but im not complaing..but like the song Im soo into rite now...Im LUCKY to be with him...

Harris Turns One

We had a micro mini celebration to mark harris birthday..my boy is One...those that attended was harris close aunties n uncle's..thanks for coming u guys..n for the prezzie..although i wish u guys did'nt bring any..since the bday celebration was done to mark his day n not for him to get prezzies..even me n hubbs have yet to get him one..thanks again u guys n not forgetting harris tok ayah n nani, aunt dd, aunt ikek n D, n aunt linda for getting harris something..

Harris froze wen we sang his Birthday song...hihih it was soo funny.. n of course he we had to stop him from grasping the cake...he was in a good mood that nite he even gave aunty ashwaa a prezzie that she refuse to take..hahah a nice poop cake..hahahah


So again thanks guys for the prezzie n for coming...

HAppy Birthday To The BOSS of my life..

I wanted to type this entry as soon as i got to the office this morning..however i kept gazing n gazing at my screen my fingers would not dance to any rhythm like it usually did...

i tried hard to find the most beautiful words to convey it on screen as today marks another point in life for my man..adding a number to his age...I soo wanted to blow his mind by what i write as that is the best gift i can afford as of now...As i search n search my heart for the very best way to wish u...i find it hard..n i guess its because u mean sooo much to me that it hurts..n by writing..i think this blog would have to close just to stop me from continuing on n on...so sayang for ur birthday..ill try to wish u in the best possible way..n i hope u will read it by tonite as we're cities away now..i really wish i could be there with u..but we have work commitments to abide...i thank god for giving me a brief moment to be with u this morning on ur birthday...

So sayang here goes..


12 years is how long we've known each other...
10 years back was our first date..or shall i call it our first meet up...
but only after 2005 did we decide to walk down that aisle..or best put..
it was u who initiated the plan...

Some mite say..y it took us that long...but i guess only u n i know the real answer..
yes ive been hurt by you..a hurt that cut soo deep..
n there was a point i tried to move on without u..
but we just can plan our life..the decision is still from above..
n i guess..though we threw each other out of our lifes for that period..
fate destined us to be together again...

I knew life won't be a bed of roses with u..
but i did'nt care..i just followed my heart ...
n alhamdulillah..though i may not b in my paradise rite know..
im thankful that we r blessed..
we have harris to lighten up our grogy days....

I don't know who can ever replace the place u set in my heart...
yes u have ur way in things..n i guess as a wife..i have to obey..
im sorry for not being able to be ur dream wife..
but rest assure that i will try with all that i have to give u the best..

Just waking up beside u..makes my day.
having u home everyday afterwork keeps my sanity...
just being able to scroll ur hp freely is a blessing..
as i wouldnt trade all that just to have an LV in my wardrobe...
just hearing u say I love u..n know u mean it...makes makes me flutter..
i know deep down inside u wanna give us the best..but maybe.maybe..god says its not ur turn yet..
rest assure that..wen i say im dreaming to have a designer bag..or another rock on my finger..
It doesnt mean it has to come from u..
Just as long us ull be with us..n love us for the rest of ur life..its ok..
N if i sigh..it does not mean im frustrated with my life with u..
As u always say..be patient..we never know wats in store for us..
some r lucky now..surely one day we will get to b the lucky ones also..
yes..i always believe in that tooo life is like a cycle..ive been at the top..when others we're at the bottom..so now is my turn to be at the bottom..insyallah..one fine day..we will b at the top again..

So sayang..know that my love for you goes beyond words n i know sometimes i seem to hurt u by my actions..
but i want u to know..that ur my rock..my world..n my journey to paradise..
i hope that i get to be the one to sing happy birthday when u turn 90..even if we're bounded to a wheelchair...


Happy Birthday sayang..


Love
-Shayang-


(yes it may be jiwang..but who cars..its my mans birthday..im allowed to do that..nak muntah sila ke blog lain)

Another year....

First of all thanks for the birthday wishes that has came pouring in..thank you..thank you all...yes im a year older..but not sure if any wiser..but clearly i thank God Al-mighty for all the blessed things that has happen throughout my life journey...and also for the opportunity to become a better person day by day...

Although work commitments has been quite strangling today.. i just wanna share with u guys..the thing that really..really made my day today...

I received my birthday card from my hubby this morning while getting ready to go to work...the writings was simple but the wordings that my hubby wrote was really2 priceless..coming from him (as most of you guys know..hihi) he also gave me a present..suffice to say it came in a small box...i sooo love it..hihi

Then later on at work while i was oogling at my computer screen at around noon..a Chinese guy..knocked on my office door..asking for me..n this was what he delivered...




N me..being the ultimate drama queen..collapse into a stream tears...thanks sayang..again u just know how to make my day....I love u sooo much...

Picking up from where I left...

Im still alive ppl..I made it thru BOOT CAMP..woot..woot...

It’s been a little over a month since I ended my BOOT CAMP..yeah the 7 months of gruesome pain..heart wrenching..being dirty n mucky n yucky..swearing..cursing..sweating like a p*iG..bonding..laughter..tears.. …u name it..it all comes in a wonderful package…of course no doubt the most difficult part of it all was being away from ur loved one’s..but I consider myself lucky , surrounded by a close knit clan that I can rely n depend on..they were always there to aid me thru my toughest days..i wish to thank them all with all I have…my family..imran especially for being my beck n call sometimes when I was in need of things..my in laws..my PIL..who willingly took care of bambam whenever I was out of KL..my SIL n Hubby..for taking in bambam n his nanny on the days that he is in KL…to my maid..for bearing with us..thru it all…even if it meant being shipped here n there (she even said “mama harris kursus..kami pun kursus jugak.. ;-))..n lastly n most importantly to my Mr. who has been very patient even though I know that he hate's having to go thru all this..he hardly complain's..n has been very very understanding.. never failed to help me even if it means having to do the things he hate's..never once got mad over my vEry..very hecTic schedule... I know I may never be able to repay all of their kindness..may ALLAH blessed them n give the best in everything for being so kind….

Harris thru me being away..became very independant.. the changes n development in him sometimes just catch me by surprise..he’s not so clingy..can be left home without any hassle..can b taught to do things easily..even separating him from our bed was done without a fight n no major drama…he can sleep on his own bed..without trying to scramble on top of ours in the wee hours of the morning..can b trained to sit in his car seat or wear seat belts without any fuss..knows to put his bottle cap on after drinking n put it in the kitchen sink..he’s soo discipline it makes me wonder..at 2 yrs old..what Operating system is he on!! but despite that..Of course he’s still two n he’s at the terrible 2 stage..on n off he has his tantrums..refuses to sleep early..even when we’re done reading books with him..the whole library of books! Yes ppl my son has a mini library..n will want to read every single book before sleeping..n it really gets to me sometimes when im sooo worn out..but nevertheless…Im so proud of him..even if its nothing to others..its something to me…harris mama loves u very very much…n am so proud of u…

I’ll try to blog about my 7 months adventures. when I have the will to do so..my penchant for writing has long left me since the boot camp where exams were part of our weekly touture..without fail they’ll be exams almost every week..having to squish ur brain on subjects that does not concern nor interest’s u is wat I detest most..n on top of that there were endless assignments..thats y I gave blogging a break..the fact that u have to put ur thoughts into word just puts me off..im done with writing..as for now…

So ill leave u guys to that…hope u’ll be patient for more updates from me..especially to ***i..who request me to update my blog…sabar yea…

Before I sign off..here r some photo’s on 2 occasions harris birthday bash..n my hubby’s small bday celebration..n I give all my credit to my SIL who made of the fantabolous cakes..nak order buzz me ye…. ;)

HArriS 2nd Birthday..

hubby's forget age birthdaY ..

Yesterday...

Yesterday marked officially another additional year to my age..of course if i had a choice..id opt to subtract the year off..heheh yeah me living in denial..dah tua tu buat lah cara dah tua...haahha

There were no flowers for my birthday ths time..nor was there any birthday bash or the sort..but i was blessed with fb wishes that poured in all day long...thanks guys..love u..xoxo... my better half had already bought me out for my birthday dinner at VS the night before in fear that he'd b caught up with work yesterday..the food was marvelous..just right..lama dah x g sebenarnya...

Yesterday after work..i came home to this.....

My mr ice cold blended really knows how to make my day..despite of his chillss..(love u sayang..) he made harris do ths..of course i got another card from him..which was utterly sweet too..but if i paste it here u'll all b lining up to the clinic...calling sick..hehehe...

So in spite of people saying the grass always looks greener on the other side..im really thankful and grateful to Allah..that my side of the grass mite not b the side that people wud want to b on..as it may hav uneaven patches n may not be covered with the finest class of grass..but it has just the rite amount of everythg..n on days that really matters..it will never let me down...come rain or shine..this side of the grass is where i belong..how can i not melt when i c ths 'O' o man..ths pumpkin mite not b mine if my grass was greener....

And to end my entry for today..i hv a small announcement to make...some may hav already known..but for those of u who haven't...ths is my biggest bday pressie ths year..but it does not come in a blue or rather turquoise box with white ribbons..

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I officially turned 12 weeks yesterday so..first trimester almost done..alhamdulillah..hopefully it'll be a good 2nd and 3rd...not to say my first was that bad..but i experienced nausea all day long for ths pregnancy..hoping that it'll go away now that its 12 weeks..n that xplains y i look like a tong drum...

tHE BIG 30

Initially my plan was to Update on the happenings of the weekend..ie me n my frens mini gathering..but due to unforseen circumstances, ill put that up in another posting as what Im about to share here means a lot to me...

LAst Saturday..upon returning back to work, my other half took me n my little guy to The Curve, I accompanied him for his lunch then we went to see my frens who were already at EDEN (read: actually only two had turned up..the rest were otw!) after saying the hello's n me BF my son..off went the two Most ImPORTANT men in my Life (well apart from my dad n bro's) to my SIL which was nearby (TTDI). Being the Dad he is, Im soo grateful that he can babysit my HArris.. so that I can have some time out wif my frens...Thank You dear..

So after the whole Chit-chat/gossip/nyot-nyet session that lasted for almost an 5 hours..(smpai naik menyumpah agaknya or EDEN..bila lah derang ni nak BALIK) my dear fren Ika n her two lovely children Irfan N Sarah sent me to mY SIL..at this point hubby wen i called my hubby he told me that harris dah start tak OK..(so of course I wanted to reach home ASAP)...

Upon reaching home I saw my SIL holding Harris..on her front lawn..hubby greeted me at the car..kissed my cheek n said "HappY Birthday"..me being the Blur that I always am..was like "Ugh..lum lagi lah"..then wen we entered the gate I saw that there was a commotion..(not exactly..thats me exagerating!!) there was a BBQ n not only was my inlaws (read: bro n sis) the kazzen mazzen was also there...but it still didnt hit me until they said "Happy Birthday"..yeah that was how BLUR I was..maybe bcoz it was an advance celebration..hubby planned all this with the help of my SIL...thank you..then came the lovely cupcakes..I like!!!..courtesy of my SIL..thank you ASHWAA..


Apparently Ika n a few of my frens were well informed about this..It really blew me away..Harris was infact Ok..so we had a mini celebration...n i got a nice gift from my CIL Evs..Thank you...to all who attended..thank you , to all who were involved in the preparation..Thank you..n to Mr.Mastermind..I love you...

This morning at 6.30am..I was about to do my morning routine pumping..when my eyes laid on this at the dining table..

there was a box and on top of it was a note that read:

Well that note made my eyes watery..(being the BIG emO that I am..)..I upon the card..n that tear dropped..heheheh but I wasn't crying hysterically thou...the card was sOoo Nice..here is how it looked liked:

So to my everdearest here's proof that I haved used it

Thou i dread the BIG 30..Im glad at this point Im sharing it with my everdearest...my biggESt THANK YOU to him for makIng my day..for all the effort that touch me deep..to some who already know my life partner; yes he may seem as cold as Ice but he has a heart that can melt mine...n that answers the question on y I can stand living with him..I'd be lying if I would'nt love to get a a nice tote from GUCCI, LV or the sort or that solitare ring, I've been eyeing at TIFFANY..but I know at this present moment, that is beyond his affordability..but I am thankful n SOoooo grateful that he knows how to strike the rite note to my heart on my SPecial day..the whole LV boutique could not replace what you did to me for my birthday, sayang...thank you n I LOVE you sooo much for it....

Ok now Im crying hysterically but silently...(n IM at the OFFICE!!!!!!...)

Thank you for all the birthday wishes n to my frens( u know who u r..) who at this point mite still be contemplating between choices...follow ur heart n choose someone who thou at some point u may want to strangle him to death..but if u look back u never regret sharing the beautiful life u had with him...for myself..im not sure if my life will be a bed of roses all the way..i hope n pray that it will pass all the obstacles n that we will be together till our after life...

n to the love of my life..I lOVE u...n thank you..