The answer to all my why's.......

The truth is, I know now in my older age why he didn't stay with me that summer. Because he loved me, but not enough. Because he loved me too much but wasn't ready. Because I was probably his first, deepest love..

i found this while browsing thru a blog...n suddenly the words echoed thru my head.. my past experience flooded clearly thru my mind....maybe...maybe..this was the cause of my misery...and the answer to my loonging question...but alhamdulillah.......thru hell ive been..god gave me the happiness i never dreamt for..which i hope..will last till the end of our life...of course i know they will be hiccups along the way..i hope..god will help us pull thru it...to my man..if ur reading this...i love u..very much..althou i know i can be a pain sometimes...thanx for putting up wif me...

To all men, understand this. Women always know if you fall in love with someone else. And often times, they know even before you do. It's in the tone of your voice and the things you don't say.And women, know that your instincts are always right. In a cruel twist of nature, the reason you possess that clarity is because you love him down to your bones. And it will break your heart. It will seize you with fear before you understand why you are frightened...."a quote from a persons blog......" which to me..is well said...down to the very last word....

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went karaoke'ng wif my colleuges ysterday...initially for 3 hrs...but extended..to 4..so u cud imagine my voice now...smpai out of songs to sing..hehhe..i really thk u guys shud check out the Red Box Ria..at SOGO..it has a warm n friendly concept for family karaoke'ng...not the usual gloomy scenes that gives u a shrill when u enter the place......it gives u an array of tit bits n drinks..our package included dinner..so u could dine n sing..(which actually is not a good idea coz u'll definately won't be able to sing properly on a full stomach....) but overall i'd give the place a thumbs up for the concept of family karaoke'ng ..(i sound like the marketing exec of REd Box..hahah)

was caught up in a bad traffic ths morning....while cursing silently at the police who to me was not communicating well with the other police traffic..i came across a nice banner..reading DEBENHAMS SALE... Wow wee...just what i needed..hehe..im actually trying to find the PERFECT SHOE for my Big DAy...found a candidate at Chairman..but i know Debenhams has a nice selection of SPECIAL OCaSSIOn shoes n bags...hmm..tommorow is a FRIDAY...ample time for me to check out the place during lunch time..sometimes..i am grateful i work in a GLC company...hav ample benefits..specially a long lunch break during fridays...

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Kamu...

Nitrus - Kamu

Oh mana bidadari
Yang turun dari kayangan
Indahnya yang tak berbandingan
Terasa bagai disentuh bayanganmu

Sesungguhnya kamu
Terang bagaikan cahaya
Yang menyinari hidupku
Dikala ku kelam..
kelamTerciptalah akuTuk kali pertama

Dan akanku buktikan
Kesungguhan dari hati ini
Hati ini..

Umpama bidadari
Kau selalu menenangkan aku
Biar kadangku terkeliru
Izinkan aku menyentuh bayanganmu

ths song has been bugging us for a while..everytime we tune into FLY.FM it manages to be aired...my dear seems to like the song..catchy tune..somwhow i got hooked to it also..we thot it was a Indon song turned out it was from a local band called NItrus....nice song..

yawn..yawn..yawn..

how tiring it was.. ths previous weekend...it started wen my flight bact to JB was delayed..arrived in JB at almost 10pm..it was not a pleasant flight as i.. (according to my dear) choose the wrong seat..which was at the back of a lady with her two giddy kids..throughout the flight, one of the kids a boy around 3 yrs of age ( i assume) could not sit still..n to to add spice to the story..my dear didn't like kids that are hyper...n ths boy went to the extend of nudging my dear..which made me react in a funny way..of course we couldn't scold the boy...the mother didn’t do anything to control the boy..he was frantically pushing all the buttons he could lay his finger on....luckily we arrived safely w/o anymore of the nudging....of course i was given the little pep talk of "i told u to sit somewhere else...c wat happens wen u don't listen..bla.bla..bla..by my dear.."

Heard that a dear friend gave birth on Thursday..Congratulations...but didn't manage to visit her thou i was in JB...will try to make a point on my next 'balik kampung trip'...

Mum n dad was ok..alhamdulillah...my youngest bro manage to turn my room n the family hall into a P'* sty..heheh..he was on semester hol..n was up to the idea of giving his room a new facelift..arrived in KL at 6.30pm yesterday...watched The scholar for the first time..very intresting..wish i was as brilliant as the contestants...then continued to watch astro's drama starring M RAjoli..W. Maimunah..which led me to sleep after 12am..n that contributed to my yawn..yawn morning....

Chocolate Craving...

it't that time of the month...the time that i crave for cHocolates....haven't had any appetite lately..dunno y..nothing to do wif life...life seems 'A'ok..alhamdulillah....how nice if i recieved a small goodie bag full of PATCHI chocolates....thou i still think its damn ridiculous to spend RM100 on a 100gm of chocolate...it would be nice...hehe

watched grey anatomy last nite..got hooked...slept quite late last nite..ended.. up had 2 practicly force myself to wake up this morning..grabbed a baju kurung that need no ironing (come to thk of it.have to buy more kain that's crease proof!!) n dashed of to work just in time before the time clocked 8.46am..thank god!!

Heard Barca won 2-1 the Champions League...a tough team to beat..but somehow had a feeling that Arsenal gave thier all..care to update me anyone??? will be on leave tommorow...yeah!!..n whizzing off back to JB..hav to visit visit the tailor....s**t its nearing end of May..how time flies....
wanna go to s'pore....but my dear..x buat passport lagi...hopefully he can do it in time for the great s'pore sale...(as if i have money to burn during that period..but hell..my hobby is window shopping!!...) it's been ages since i've been over the tambak...last was during the time tsunami hit S.E.A....i was bzz..window shopping wif my bro's wen more thousands n thousands of people were fighting to stay alive...how eerie...it just goes to show...how Majestic GOD is above Human kind...he can make some people happy..some suffering..some fighting...all at the same moment...

A Cup of life...

Liverpool won the FA cup YEA!!!!!!!!! thanks to thier HEro Stevie G....He was sUperb..n so was his goals....on the other hand was dissapointed on the outcome of the Spanish GP...Kimi 5th n Montoya out...another not soo good outing for Mc Laren...

i had a so so weekend...but did get the xtra beauty sleep i was yearning for....did'nt get to go window shopping as my dear had to work on Sat Nite...which meant that he spent the entire sunday sleeping....uwahhhhhhhh sedihnya...

watched abby n norman on melody....sedih plak tgk diorg...hope they can have a better future after ths....everybody akan di duga...b4 marriage..after marriage..yg bole kita buat..berserah n pray ours wont b as bad so that we'll be able to pull thru....

can't do much blogging today as i have deadlines..so till then..cheers

yeah..a long weeekend........

its..4.26pm...another hour or so..till the end of my working week..n off to a long weekend..yeah!!!bestnya..get to xtend my beauty sleep..as waking up early in the morning has always been my worst enemy...wish i could work in an office that starts at 10am..that'll give me plenty of beauty sleep n can breeze my way to the office....arhhh..if only...

so wat will i be doin ths weekend?? hmm...haven't planned nything yet...but surely will want to do a little window shopping..(i know my man will dread that...) but hey..ive been dragged to his endless futsal's n soccer game so..i think i deserve a shopping trip..occasionally...don't u agree??
o i almost 4got..he's got a soccer game tommorow....

Liverpool will be playing for the FA cup this weekend...a game that must be watched!!...Hope they crush West Ham...it was just not thier luck to clinched second place...maybe due to thier inconsistency last season...i really hope they sell off Cisse..think he's a waste..nway to all the the liverpool fans...U'll never walk alone...cheers!!!

Why iS iT...

i'm staring blankly at my off pc..have Tons of work with deadlInes..but my mind is elsewhere..its freezing in here..my mind is numb..my fingers r blue...wonder how the hell these ppl can stand the aircond here..its pouring outside..wish i could snuggle under a warm duvet!!...im sounding as if im in a cold climate country..rnt i??..well as cheesy as it sounds..i can't stand the cold..yup..me..can't stand the cold!!!...dunno how i manage to survive during my early birth days in that bloody cold climate!! mum must have wrapped me with tons n tons of blanket..

WeNt to IsEtan yesterday...hate KlCC during weekeNds...so yesterday there were no crowds n parking was soo easy...Supposedly went there to buy my soon to be other half' s shirt....but as i thot..he opted for another brand which was not on sale..y ahhh?? all the nice clothings..material..gadget..stuffs..are all in th NEW ARRIVAL section..n of course wen u asked

"xscuse me miss..is there any discount for this?? (smiling gleemingly hoping for a miracle)

"aww..sorry miss..that one new arrival..no discount..the one over there got discount.." (yeah i know but i would'nt be holding ths one if i was intrested in the shirts on d discounted racks!!)...

So had to pass ..the shiRt was sooo Nice but the Price was a BOMB!!... considering the fact that it was just a shirt..Luckily my dear understood my budget..so..we discussed..n decided to wait for the end of season sale..hopefully by then the shirt will be discounted..(im keeping my fingers crossed..) i knew he really liked it..i did too..(sigh..sigh..) better luck next time..i hope...

We went to the bedding section and fell in love with the display set...wen asked the price..OMG!!!!!!...RM729 for a set of fitted sheet+two pillow case+quilt cover..(w/o the quilt)...i could by 7 comforter sets with that amount...but it was Soooooooo nice..ud want to be in bed under the covers if u saw it too...come to think of it..i should put that on my wishlist..who knows..if it rained $$$$ that's a must buy for us..hehe..as for now...we'll keep dreaming...

the First time....

well..here goes...


i never thot id b one of those gals..blogging bout thier life for other people to share...analysing...reading ie; browsing ppls blogs or cunningly posting comments is relatively my kinda thingy..but blogging...ermmm don't think so....but as ppl say..u don't know anything until u've tried..n to have a fair share of wat it feels to share ur thots..i guess here goes..n im timing how long i can consistantly keep something i started....so hopefully this entry won't b my first and last...hahhaha...period!..