Bersiaran dari boot camp kiara...

To all my friends who r still close at heart..(thou we seldom keep in touch due to me being in this so called haven!!!... but fret not..insyallah it will all be over soon..if u count 3months as soon!!!)

So with this opportunity in between having to juggle assignment n presentation for like to wish to all of, friends, readers..whoever u are.. a very2 happy raya....have a blast..n sorry for any wrongdoings that may have hurt u guys ever since we our path crossed...

This year I'll be spending my weeks raya in KL...huhhuh..n maybe going back to muar for a day or so...raya will never be the same especially in muar with the passing of my beloved aunt last feb..sob..sob...

so guys...if ur in KL for raya do buzz k...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA..from me, mr.weezal n li'l harris...

Hi peeps

hello guys..

cant write much..class in session in 10...a brief course sucks like hell.. we're treated like kindergarten students...not in a sense of being told off or the sort...but in a sense of freedom..going out of the main gate at any times... except wen given permission to.. is like a huge..N I REPEAT A HUGE..sin ..its more hell than the real military training..on another note...i managed to pull thru the army module in one piece..thank god!!. a pat on th back for life is only on weekends..even if its less than 36 hrs being away from boot camp..

i lost my uncle in between my hectic schedule...he died at the age of 31 goin to 32..left 2 kids behind..just to share with u guys..always prepare an umbrella for rainy days...even if it seems to shine throught the day...imagine the wife... from the husband supporting her with 5 figures salary to wud u guys cope?? my uncle was a very2 good guy..very noble..humble..responsible..all the good aspects of a wanted husband is in him ..n wen i told his wife..good men die young..the wife responded " that's y jgn jadi baik sgt...susah.."(pulak!)...hihi

leaving the sad news behind...GUYS...i really really miss hanging busier than the PM nowadays...but really wanna hav a cuppa..hopefully soon....till then..bye guys..

p/d i do read ur blogs guys...but cant aford to leave a comment at the expense of my time...


Picture credit to here

To my dear frens..n readers of my blog..(if i don't already know u)

I'll be going away for 6.5 months boot camp...its going to b a tough course..infact very..very tough...just like military course..ill be based in KL..but there will be times where ill hav to attend outside module such as being in the army, fire brigade and police course..i wont be able to go home..on weekdays..n will have 1.5 day off on weekends..n ill sure b misreable...yes before u say a bad mother for leaving my son during this period..never in a million years wud i want to.had i another option..of course id opt not too..but this is my duty call...n this is the career path i unwillingly chose..(destined upon me)..

So pls bear with me if within this period of time im almost unreachable...if u have any urgent messages to convey to me..dont hesitate to buzz my hubby...

Maybe..maybe ill have a slightly longer leave during hari raya..but thats about till then babes..ill update if n wen its possible..tata..n wish me luck...

Another year....

First of all thanks for the birthday wishes that has came pouring in..thank you..thank you all...yes im a year older..but not sure if any wiser..but clearly i thank God Al-mighty for all the blessed things that has happen throughout my life journey...and also for the opportunity to become a better person day by day...

Although work commitments has been quite strangling today.. i just wanna share with u guys..the thing that really..really made my day today...

I received my birthday card from my hubby this morning while getting ready to go to work...the writings was simple but the wordings that my hubby wrote was really2 priceless..coming from him (as most of you guys know..hihi) he also gave me a present..suffice to say it came in a small box...i sooo love it..hihi

Then later on at work while i was oogling at my computer screen at around noon..a Chinese guy..knocked on my office door..asking for me..n this was what he delivered...

N me..being the ultimate drama queen..collapse into a stream tears...thanks sayang..again u just know how to make my day....I love u sooo much...


Hi peeps..

God..thank god im still able to log on to this blog...its been eons ever not going to bore u with why i didn't update for soo long ..suffice to say that my workload prevails all..n i mean it!! who ever says if u work for the GOM can dok goyang kaki..pls..pls..n i do mean plss..with all do respect..i can even throw in a red carpet welcome for u to come n replace me was more relaxed in the private less depressing..i get soo depressed here at times..i miss my days in my former company..not the work..but the environment..less depressing..more happy...this is what u get for being an obedient child n following ur parents dream..hahah (so now blame it on the parents!!!..nah..i guess its just fated) to the peeps out there who yearn to b the chosen one or the selected one..or the cream of the crop..or watever crap they say about being the selected to bin the most prominent scheme in GOM..pls think 1000 times before committing urself..they choose these so CALLED great officer for a reason..n reason is because THEY THINK WE CAN HANDLE THE PRESSURE!!!!

Ok enuff of me hampering my depression..sometimes i dont know wat i want in my career..its seems like im a jack of all trades but not a king in any...i wanna be able to master at least something n known to be good at it...y cant i just have my hobby as my career n get paid for it...nway trying to see lite at this dark tunnel n trying to have a positive attitude..maybe one fine day they'll be a pot of gold for me..a pot of gold that i can share with my loved ones..God knows wat kind of gold i'll people say u hav to learn it the hard'll get easier...just like having the joy of my was soo hard at first..but alhamdulillah..he's the color in my life...the one who can shift all my depression away with his cheeky smile...

On the home is holiday to tell new fashion acessories that i acquired...but i still feel blessed..because its better to be on a mono tone rather than having unwanted high or low pitches.....but things r good..alhamdulillah especially with our little one..he really lites up our life..

So till next time folks..hope it wont b till another month before another entry...take care..

p/s to my dear friend who go tied the knot my cuzzie in law who gave birth to a beautiful baby...congratulations..n to my dear fren who's birthday recently past HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY...wen r u coming back?? n to another dear fren who'll be celebrating her birthday tomorrow..HAPPY BIRTHDAY...hope all of u will be blessed with life's wonders....


Sometimes..wen u've been harboring ur temper or trying to keep cool wen others keep doing it over n over again.. although u remind them not to..the lid just blows matter where or was not intentional nor was it at an appropriate place..but i guess..the hurt is just too much to handle at that point off time..n soo it exploded..did i regret it?? yes bcause it was at an inappropriate time n place..but never on the many remindings do u need for it to b plucked in ur head?? i asking too much??? God made all individuals unique.. wat was programmed in ur head mite not be in mine.. RESPECT is the word..

p/s: i wont be naming names..

Google Fu

Hi dearie..dearest n fellow members of my blog readers..

It's been a while since i've updated.. even had to dust off the cobwebs here..n im sneezing trying to blow off the thick dust that has gathered...nway a quickie on whats happening in my mystical life..I've been sooooooooo bz at work..SWAMPED with THINGS TO DO n the list seems to be never ending...I sure cannot wait for this day to end...Really..really n i mean Really need to catch up on a lot of resting n ZZzZzzzzzz... much to this hecticness was caused be me, myself n i attending the interesting course i mentioned on my FB status..

GOoGle Fu!!..yup that's the name of the course...n boy was it worth it??.. every second of the two day course...i loved it!! never enjoyed a course soo much...(on a attend courses because it's compulsory!!) ..the fact that i was fidgeting to get back to the course as i had to attend a meeting in between says it all..I didn't wanna miss even one module..

Basically the course trains us to ask anything..yup ANYTHING that comes across our minds (except matters of the heart..hihih) to Google...before this i've always had a pet name for google which is Dr. google..but now im promoting it to Prof. Google... Tips n tricks were given on how to narrow down our search.. to like a few hundreds or even to 10 from millions web page retrieved once we type a keyword...n u can find like absolutely anything..yup anything n long as it's hosted... which leads us to one downside..n its creepy wen u think of it..any personal information we put in the net can be captured and hacked..although not everybody can do it..but just bare in mind..hacking n building your personal profile from the info u post on the net is not that hard... so my advise don't disclose too much information on the net..better still keep it up to a minimum..n please please think before u upload any photo's that mite haunt u back ...because even if u restrict ur profile/photo's on the fb..its still up available in the web market.... yup it can be done n it has be done..n u don't need CIA to do it...even i can!!!! given the proper training...(but rest assure..i don't have time to do so..n i respect peoples privacy)..

This course really benefits everyone actually..especially a person like me..who constantly refers to Prof Google..i soo wanted to attend this course because im sure it will be beneficial to me when i have to pursue my postgraduate studies...n i sure feel it's worth love to sign up for an advance course even as an independent participant..n even if it means i hav to dig up my own pocket money n spare a handbag of my dreams..(for a moment) hehehe

So i have to resume to my actual job..i'll leave u guys with a search engine for u test run n oso a tip i learned from the course...have fun..

1. search-cube - search for anything n see what happens..its really kewl..
2. Worrying wether ur loved ones have departed on their flight or wanting to know wether they've arrived type thier Flight no. e.g MH1 (it works with air asia too)on the goole search panel n c wat happens..

sad but VEry true..

I was browsing thru my email..ths morning n found this in my inbox..fowarded from a fren..thought id share it wif u guys..

Interesting quote from the movie 'Why did I get married?'

In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of what you NEED and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in your relationship. There is always another person (man or women) that you will meet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in your relationship that you WANT
And believe me, 20% looks really good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship.

But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80% that you know you have, thinking that you will get something better with the other 20% that you WANT

But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED and that you already had.
Be careful in deciding between what you WANT and NEED in your life.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have. 'Wow, this girl in my office is a real looker. But it's not her Wynona Rider features that got me. I'm crazy about her because she's also understanding, intelligent, tender - so many things that my spouse is not'

Somewhere along the way, you'll find a woman or a man who will be more charming or sensitive. More alluring. More thoughtful. Richer. Have greater sex appeal. And you will find a woman or man who will need you and pursue you and go loco over you more than your spouse ever did.

Because no wife or husband is perfect. Because a spouse will only have 80% of what you're looking for. So adultery takes place when a husband or wife looks for the missing 20%. Let's say your wife is melancholic by nature.

You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laugh no matter what she says: 'I broke my arm yes terday, Hahahaha . . ..'

Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers and pajamas, smelling of garlic and fish oil, you may fall for a fresh-smelling young sales representative that visits your office in a sharp black blazer, high heels, and a red pencil-cut skirt Or because your husband is the quiet
type, your heart may skip a beat when you meet an old college flame who has the makings of a talk show host.

But wait! That's only 20% of what you don't have.

Don't throw away the 80% that you already have!

That's not all. Add to your spouse's 80% the 100% that represents all the years that you have been with each other. The storms you have weathered together. The unforgettable moments of sadness and joy as a couple. The many adjustments you have made to love the other. The wealth of memories that you've accumulated as lovers.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.

But faithfulness happens when you st art thanking God for what you already have.

But I'm not just talking about marriage.

I'm talking about life!

About your jobs.
About your friends.
About your children.
About your lifestyles.

Are you like the economy airline passenger that perennially peeks through the door of the first class cabin, obsessed with what he's missing? 'They have got more leg room! Oh my, their food is served in porcelain! Wow, their seats recline at an 80% angle and they've got personal videos!'

I guarantee you'll be miserable for the entire trip! Don't live your life like that. Forget about what the world says is first class. Do you know that there are many first class passengers who are miserable in first class -- because they are not riding in a private Lear Jet?

The main message???

If you start appreciating what you have right now, wherever you are, you are first class!

In loving memories...Makpon...Al-fatihah

I lost a dearly beloved aunt last rocked my world as she was a very very dear aunt...the wife of my mom's brother..for those aunt was the mother of our senior..n super senior to some of u guys..K.Fazidah Othman (suria) n MIL to Rezo Jasman (yes they married)..n oso an aunt to another SMSJians..Hizlan hussin (96)...(yes i hav a number of SMSJians in my family...which also includes my youngest bro Idris..n my second cousin...who's our super duper senior..batch 87..

My aunt just got back from Jakarta Bandung trip...accompanying her husband...i met her last she came to send my grandmother to late aunt takes care of my grandma most of the time....since my grandmother was in KL..i told hubbs that i wanna visit her..we spent a few hours there at K.fazidah's soo glad that i did..because that was the last time we chatted..she was fine..nothing odd or so...she left for Johor to my parents place the coming Monday as the flight was from Senai....

They came back last Friday..n my parents fetch them at the told me that makpon (we call her that) had a fever n was very weak..they took her to a clinic that nite n the doc ruled out that she may hav had a major food poisoning...Come uncle wanted to go back to off they went..she was still weak..all of her children cam back that nite....most of them arrived in the wee hours in the morning..they knocked on her door..she opened..although she was weak...they decide to take her to the hospital the following day (Sunday)..n she was admitted..she was sedated..doc said that she has very critical pnemonia which had effected her kidney causing it to not function ... come nite her Bp was very low so the doc gave her the strongest medicine to try and push the Bp back then all my aunts n uncle had gone back to Muar...feeling uneasy i contacted my car pool with them as hubbs had an urgent matter to attend to that day...but before we cud even begin our journey back...

She left us all at 8.55am..i was on my way back home wen i got the news..i felt dumbstruck...numb.and..speechless....till now i can never swallow the fact that she's gone forever...

I miss her..n can never begin to imagine how our raya wud be after this..she was the core of our raya..our family celebrations..she was always there behind every event in our family..Muar means her delicious food on the table...her laughter n smiles fills the hse..her images dances in front of me everytime i think of her..i miss her soo..sooo much..she's like another mother to me...a referral to my mom n aunts..a guide to cooking for all of us..n now shes gone...the hse instantly seems sooo gloomy..sooo sad..they'll b no more of her wonderful cakes n biscuits...

however the saddest part of all was wen her real mother aunt is actually Chinese by birth but given to a malay family...some years back.. they reunited..but i guess after soo many years it was very awkward for her n the mother to reconnect...the mother came wailing by her jenazah..

" mama datang..mama datang" wiping her face with handkerchief...
(it was a real drama swasta moment for us...)

thou thru all the glad that to see the masses of turnout for her was a sea of people...almost everybody in our huge-huge family came....glad to see that she had rows n rows of jemaah for her sembahyang jenazah..glad to know that her last breath was with by her two sons..her last breathe exhaled was just after her sons had finished reciting the last verse of yassin...glad that she didn't suffer long...and glad to see the her eldest son lead the jenazah prayers ...yup..mmg sejuk perut ibu mengandung..knowing that u raised such a just hits me to my deepest core...i hope that Harris will one day be able to do the same...being able to lead the last prayer for me..means a lot...i hope u guys can encourage (including myself) n prepare ur husbands..brothers especially those eldest to do the same for their may be the best gift they can ever receive..even though they cannot see it virtually....

In loving memories..of Hajjah Nyapon Hj Abd Wahab....u'll b greatly missed..i really really miss u..n hope Allah tempatkan Makpon dikalangan yang beriman...amin...


p/s thank you to my parents inlaw for coming all the way from JB...


While bloghopping, i found an interesting cause that i strongly support..n hope u guys will do too..i extracted the most important and common Q&A concerning breastfeeding..n due to this is why most breastfeeding especially those exclusivly find it a very offensive subject wen people give negative comments or judge them wen all thier trying to do is give thier ultimate best to thier child...

so if ur on the same boat as me pls sign this petition clicking here

Why should babies be breastfed?
  • Breast milk is the most complete form of nutrition for infants. Breast milk has just the right amount of fat, sugar, water, and protein that is needed for a baby's growth and development. Most babies find it easier to digest breast milk than they do formula.
  • There are health risks to the baby if it is not breastfed. Breast milk has agents (called antibodies) in it to help protect infants from bacteria and viruses. Babies who are not exclusively breastfed for 6 months are more likely to develop a wide range of infections diseases including ear infections, diarrhea, and respiratory illnesses. They are sick more often and have more doctor's visits.
  • Breastfed babies score higher on IQ tests in childhood, especially babies who were born prematurely.
  • Nursing uses up extra calories, making it easier to lose the extra weight gained during pregnancy. It also helps the uterus to get back to its original size and lessens any bleeding you might have after giving birth.
  • Breastfeeding lowers the risk of breast and ovarian cancers and possibly the risk of hip fractures and osteoporosis after menopause.
  • Breastfeeding can help women bond with their babies. Physical contact is important to newborns and can help them feel more secure, warm and comforted.


Benefits for Infant Benefits for Mother
  • Perfect food for infant
  • Guarantees safe, fresh milk
  • Enhances immune system
  • Protects against infectious and noninfectious diseases
  • Protects against food allergies and intolerances
  • Decreases risk of diarrhea and respiratory infections
  • Promotes correct development of jaw, teeth, and speech patterns
  • Decreases risk of childhood obesity
  • Increases cognitive function
  • Increases bonding with mother
  • Promotes less postpartum bleeding
  • Promotes faster return to pre-pregnancy weight
  • Eliminates the need for preparing and mixing formula
  • Saves money not spent on formula
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  • Promotes faster shrinking of the uterus
  • reases risk of breast and ovarian cancer
  • Increases bonding with infant
  • Enhances self-esteem in the maternal role
  • Delays the menstrual cycle

2. What are good breastfeeding practices?

Good breastfeeding practices include:

  • Starting to breastfeed within one hour of birth
  • Feeding the baby breastmilk and nothing else, not even water, for the first six months of life
  • Introducing other appropriate and adequate foods thereafter while continuing to breastfeed the baby for as long as possible

3. Why is breastfeeding the baby within one hour of birth important

The breasts make milk only if they are stimulated by suckling. A baby just born needs only a few drops of milk, and the mother's breasts have this. When the baby suckles, the breast is stimulated to produce more milk. The baby will go to sleep with the just the few drops, but when he/she wakes up, the mother's breast will be full of milk for the next feed. The first few drops of milk, called colostrum, protects the baby from infections. Feeding within one hour of birth can reduce the risk of illness by 6 times.

4. How can a woman start breastfeeding within an hour after a Cesarian?

Initiation of breastfeeding is often delayed after a cesarian section. However, the woman can start breastfeeding as soon as she is fully conscious and alert. Women who have epidural anesthesia are generally able to hold the baby sooner and nurse for a longer period initially, than those who have general anesthesia. It is important that the woman breastfeeds the baby during the first day.

5. What is colostrum and how does it help the baby?

Colostrum is the thick, yellowish milk that the mother's breast produces for the first few days after delivery. It is rich in antibodies against several common diseases. When the baby drinks colostrum, the antibodies pass into its body and help to protect the baby against these infections, which can be life threatening for the baby

6. What is exclusive breastfeeding?

Exclusive breastfeeding means giving the baby only breastmilk and nothing else. Any other fluid or foods, even water, can interfere with the milk supply.

7. What about water?

During the six months of exclusive breastfeeding, the baby does not require anything else, not even water. Breastmilk alone is sufficient to meet all its needs. During this period, the baby should not be given any water, other milks, juices, teas, soups, or any other kinds of liquids and solids, other than immunization (drops, such as Oral Polio Vaccine), any medication as part of a treatment prescribed by a qualified health worker.

8. What if the baby continues to be hungry after breastfeeding?

All women can produce enough milk for their babies. Only extremely malnourished women may have difficulty in doing so. The amount of milk produced depends on how often the baby suckles and for how long. The flow of milk from the breast to the baby is dependent upon the woman's state of mind. If she is depressed or worried, the milk that is already in her breasts may not flow to the baby's mouth. She may then get the feeling that her breasts are not producing enough milk for the baby. A trained counsellor can help the woman with her stress and fears, so that the milk will flow from her breast to the baby.

9. What about sore breasts, cracked nipples, etc.?

These problems are usually caused when the milk produced by the breast does not reach the baby. They can be easily treated by a health worker. A trained counsellor can help the woman to relax and enjoy breastfeeding. As the baby continues to suckle and draw out the milk, the problems will disappear.

10. Will exclusive breastfeeding for six months weaken the mother?

A breastfeeding woman requires some extra nutritious food everyday as milk production requires about 800 calories daily. An extra helping of wholesome fruits, vegetables, whole grains, protein, and calcium-rich foods such as an extra glass of milk will meet her needs. She must drink plenty of water during the day while breastfeeding.

11. Can a woman breastfeed if her breasts are small?

Of course! Breast size is not related to the ability to produce milk. Breast size is dependent on the amount of fatty tissue in the breast, and not the amount of milk.

12. Does breastfeeding make breasts sag?

Several studies have shown that breastfeeding does not cause breasts to sag. Sagging is a natural and inevitable process that happens because of age, number of pregnancies and smoking. Diet and genetics may also play a role. Sagging of breasts is not related to breastfeeding in any way.

13. How can a working woman exclusively bring up her baby on breastmilk?

Today, several governments and private sector institutions offer maternity leave to women, when the women can recuperate from child birth and breastfeed the baby. When women do have to go to work, they can express their breastmilk either by hand or by using a breastpump. This milk can be stored, warmed as needed and fed to the baby by the care giver.

14. What about infant formula and other baby milk produced by companies? Are these as good as breastmilk?

Breastmilk is the best milk for babies. No other milk, whether fresh, or powdered, can meet their needs fully. Even the most hygienically manufactured milk is not as good as breastmilk for the baby. However, several times, the manufactured milks may be contaminated with bacteria, chemicals, toxics, etc. Or the water that is used for mixing the milk may be contaminated with these substances even if it is boiled, making other milks doubly dangerous for the baby.

15. Is it safe to take medications while breastfeeding?

Always tell the health worker that you are breastfeeding before taking any medication. The health worker will advise you on the need, the dosage and the precautions you may need to take.

all info are obtained from ONE MILLION CAMPAIGN

p/s there's no such thing as insufficient's just mind over matter subject...a negative input will actually cause the production of milk to be the body will react in a sense that the baby needs to be guys..pls..if ur not exclusively breastfeeding..its ok..but don't meddle with negative comments of an exclusive breastfeeding mother..cause it does disrupt her milk production...

The HAIR urge....

I have this weird trait wen it concerns my's like..wen the urge comes to have it cropped off or permed or the sort..i just have to do it like NOW!! it cannot must be within 48hrs.. or else it it will bug rants in my head like " i must cut my hair!!..i must cut my hair!!!.." it only shuts up wen im fast asleep...

So this urge happened to me last weekend..i looked at my reflection in my not so magic mirror..n i looked at my not so healthy locks..n "BoOOm!!" the clock ticks n the chants starts....

So after visiting my grandma last saturday..hubbs wanted to take a nap..i just couldn't wait to dive into a salon...didn't even care to go inside my hse once everyone was out of the car...i just needed to go to the salon...( was that bad!!) but mr. hubbs manage to persuade me into performing Asar prayers first...

Off i scooted to Taipan to my fav salon ..KIMMARIE...I love going there because it was cheap..RM25 for senior stylist haircut plus wash n blow..i reckon it was a the stylist there r friendly n they really tell u what style suits u n not that suits their pocket...i was intending to do hair relaxing..perhaps in a few months time..but the stylist told me not to do any of the sort as i have this natural wave at the bottom of my according to looks just a haircut wud do..

So after the cropping n trimming..the stylist mention that i do not need to do any trimming or the sort for 6 months... (c i told u guys it was a steal...RM25 for 6 months!!.. cheaper than hubbs hair maintainance..cropping at a barber cost him RM10 per month!!)

The only downside of this place is that its Sooooo hard to park in this Weekends preferably n not during lunch hours...but it was a breeze for me as it was only 5 mins from home..

With the hair i can get my good nites sleep back without having to worry about any hair nightmares...hihihi

The long haul bus ride....

Consider this story happened last friday..but due to my workload n my flu..i kept delaying n delaying trying to squeeze now that i've finally managed..hope i can finish it before my boss calls me in..

Since hubbs had to be in JB for work assignments last thursday..i told him to take my bam bam n his guardian along..coz i had a meeting friday morning, that i can't skip..we were planning to go back to JB even before hubbs mentioned he had work was my cuzzies perfect timing..paid plus pleasure..

nevertheless...because hubbs confirm quite late the flight price was on the unreasonable if i took Air asia i had to stay another nite..n someone had to send me to LCCT, if i took Firefly..flight was at 5.15pm..n i anticipated the meeting shud b adjourned before the price quoted was quite ridiculous..MAS..oso the same problem ..expensive..have to go to KLIA....

thinking about it..traveling by plane to JB time wise is equivalent to time spent going there by bus..n its cheaper..(if its adhoc) well basically u have to get ur butt to the airport 45 mins before check in..going to the likes of KLIA n LCCT will take like another 30 to 45 mins..thats like 2 hrs gone easily...not to mention the cost of petrol n toll return for the person sending u..then from Senai..u have to get someone to fetch u...or u hail a cab which will cost u another RM30 plus it takes like 30 -45minutes to get to JB from Senai..n u have to incorporate the basic time spent waiting to unboard the plane..walking to get ur bags..that's another 20-30 minutes......KL-JB non stop bus 4 hrs tops...

But anyway...i guess u guys know i opted to go back by bus..its been years since i got on an express coach to JB..can't even remember my last time..i think 2006 or was it 2005...the price of the ticket had also increased within time..its now like RM31 one way... i reached PUDURAYA by 12.20pm..i looked around for buses that were to depart ASAP..(inside i couldn't wait to be reunited with my bam bam) i rang my brother before hand..asking which buses were non stop at the ticket counter..this guy came up and said.."JB 12.30pm"..i was like ye ke...
he guided me to the counter..which wasn't very far..i did asked..was the bus there..n the lady at the counter smiled n said yes..its at platform 20..she gave me the plate number n off i fear that i wud be late..TRANS STAR waS the express bus name...i did asked the lady this a non stop bus...she informed me it was..4 hrs to JB..

At the platform i texted hubbs n my parents saying that insyallah by 430pm id be in JB..I think i only got to board the bus at aorund 1240pm...long story short..did u guys know wat time the bus left PUDURAYA...2.20pm..i was turning blue n green..turns out that they wanted atleast 20 passengers for that trip..just to cover thier trip...i don't usually tell people off in thier face..but i couldn't stand it anymore..the guy who ushered me to his counter was on the bus..i just told him front off everyone on the bus..(i didn't know where i had the courage..) but hey seriously he was a big fat liar... i can be reasonable if its just half an hour n if outside of PUDURAYA was congested..but no it wsn't..he was like..erm..ok...ok..we're gonna depart now...

N so we did...thank god!!!!..i was stupid..i shud have just got off the bus n requested a refund..silly the journey started..we stopped at ESSO before Sg Besi Toll plaza for gas..the driver said
"sapa mau pegi toilet...sekarang ye..lepas ni takda stop-stop lagi..."(the driver was Chinese)

i thot alhamdulillah...i can reach JB by 6pm....but hell was i wrong...
Dahlah the bus bawak cam siput...I couldn't sleep althou i only had 4 hrs sleep the nite before...n suddenly the bus stopped again at Tangkak R&R area..for another toilet heart was churning...the stop was like for 15 minutes....the we resumed our journey..just as i was talking to my bro on the phone..n he asked..

"is the bus going to stop again?? which i replied i don't think so..

The bus made an exit to YOng Peng....i could not explain my how furious i was heart almost stopped..WTF????? i thot this was supposed to be a non stop Yong Peng stop for like 25minutes..n upon everyone boarding back the bus..i overheard this makcik telling the driver she wanted to stop at KULAI.....I swore i could have killed both the driver n makcik at that time....I was screaming inside...

My brother was laughing in fits...told me

" i told u..y lah u must take unreliable bus..u don't want transnasional coz it stops for half an hour..but now ur losing hours n hours...!!!"

But i had my own laugh..upon Kulai exit...the bus stopped..but we didn't enter Kulai..the bus stopped at the emergency lane besides the ext lane to Kulai toll..the driver said
Driver: "ok makcik Kulai.."
Makcik: "hah..berenti sini je?? igtkan masuk..."
Driver: "oo tak masuk..tak masuk..sini je..makcik jalan sikit (which looked to me like 500 metres) ..sampai toll Kulai"

Me: nak gelak pon ada..kesian pon ada..makcik tu taklah tua sgt still fit an all...but kesian gak lah..

I basically reached UDA at 6.45 pm my brothers rescued me there..coz i was having fits being angry..we drove strait to my Inlaws to be reunited back with bam..bam...

My mum also called me during my BUS EXPEDITION..i was cursing like mad..she in between laughter told me to be patient...sekali skala je naik bus..dugaan lah..bla..bla..bla..lah..but she had me at one point..

"u just get one the taste of others hardship.. u complain like mad...(i even vowed not to take the bus time flight all the way..) u get soo worked up because u have a choice..other people go thru it everytime.. however bad their experiences are.. its their only choice..if u didn't have a choice..u wud just go with the flow n not whine n complain..."

Which made me's like that..we complain because we have choices..but if that was my only means of transportation..would i get so worked up?? sure i was late by almost 2hrs plus but i arrived safely..n i get to be reunited with bam..bam...(at that point of time..communications with hubbs had been put off..bcause he was soo caught up with work..n i was soooo into furious fits..= not a good time to b having a decent conversation..he joined us after work n i had cooled off from the incident...

Moral of the story: if u take the form a reliable bus company..n stop complaining..others face these kinds of hardship everyday...

HAppy Birthday To The BOSS of my life..

I wanted to type this entry as soon as i got to the office this morning..however i kept gazing n gazing at my screen my fingers would not dance to any rhythm like it usually did...

i tried hard to find the most beautiful words to convey it on screen as today marks another point in life for my man..adding a number to his age...I soo wanted to blow his mind by what i write as that is the best gift i can afford as of now...As i search n search my heart for the very best way to wish u...i find it hard..n i guess its because u mean sooo much to me that it hurts..n by writing..i think this blog would have to close just to stop me from continuing on n sayang for ur birthday..ill try to wish u in the best possible way..n i hope u will read it by tonite as we're cities away now..i really wish i could be there with u..but we have work commitments to abide...i thank god for giving me a brief moment to be with u this morning on ur birthday...

So sayang here goes..

12 years is how long we've known each other...
10 years back was our first date..or shall i call it our first meet up...
but only after 2005 did we decide to walk down that aisle..or best put..
it was u who initiated the plan...

Some mite say..y it took us that long...but i guess only u n i know the real answer..
yes ive been hurt by you..a hurt that cut soo deep..
n there was a point i tried to move on without u..
but we just can plan our life..the decision is still from above..
n i guess..though we threw each other out of our lifes for that period..
fate destined us to be together again...

I knew life won't be a bed of roses with u..
but i did'nt care..i just followed my heart ...
n alhamdulillah..though i may not b in my paradise rite know..
im thankful that we r blessed..
we have harris to lighten up our grogy days....

I don't know who can ever replace the place u set in my heart...
yes u have ur way in things..n i guess as a wife..i have to obey..
im sorry for not being able to be ur dream wife..
but rest assure that i will try with all that i have to give u the best..

Just waking up beside u..makes my day.
having u home everyday afterwork keeps my sanity...
just being able to scroll ur hp freely is a blessing..
as i wouldnt trade all that just to have an LV in my wardrobe...
just hearing u say I love u..n know u mean it...makes makes me flutter..
i know deep down inside u wanna give us the best..but maybe.maybe..god says its not ur turn yet..
rest assure that..wen i say im dreaming to have a designer bag..or another rock on my finger..
It doesnt mean it has to come from u..
Just as long us ull be with us..n love us for the rest of ur life..its ok..
N if i does not mean im frustrated with my life with u..
As u always patient..we never know wats in store for us..
some r lucky now..surely one day we will get to b the lucky ones also..
yes..i always believe in that tooo life is like a cycle..ive been at the top..when others we're at the now is my turn to be at the fine day..we will b at the top again..

So sayang..know that my love for you goes beyond words n i know sometimes i seem to hurt u by my actions..
but i want u to know..that ur my world..n my journey to paradise..
i hope that i get to be the one to sing happy birthday when u turn 90..even if we're bounded to a wheelchair...

Happy Birthday sayang..


(yes it may be jiwang..but who cars..its my mans allowed to do that..nak muntah sila ke blog lain)

Books n Dessert Galore..

I had a fairly good weekend...well actually it was a very good Saturday as we had lunch at Aji Don at Plaza Damas in Hartamas... i love dining there because they serve a number of Johor's specialty plus it was cheap..they have the likes of soto rempah, mee rebus (hj wahid style)..satay..tahu bakar to name's been quite a while since we went due to the fact that i declared to my better half that im on cooking leave that day n considering the fact that hubby hates malls specially during wkends.. that place cross my mind..

n we got to kill 2 birds with one stone (me actually..hubby was not aware at all till we were there..hehehhe) TIMES was having warehouse book was quite massive as it had rows n rows of books on sale..however best sellers only had 30% discounts...

But the best part is they had a section 3 books for RM10.00 soo we went crazy...(hheheh me n my brother only) ..

This is the photo of our catch that day..we bought all the above for RM149.85....i was sooo happy...hihi so if ur a bookworm... y not check it out..if im not mistaken its still on until the 18th Jan...

(p/s : i even bought 2 story books for my helper aka maid...heheh Cinta Lapan Segi n ntah wat was the other title...)

After that we had dessert at dessert bar....they also had a promotion... 50% on all items on the wat do u expect..we had a vast dessert this one also until gurls y not hav a get together one of these days..n indulge..they have sandwiches n quick meals l...i couldn't resist the fondue n it was only RM11.00 after discount...

We left plaza Damas feeling happy..we were there for like almost 5hrs but we only paid RM1 for parking plus hubby was ok n not that cranky n all..mybe bcoz the place was really laid back n relaxing...

My frustrations....

Life at work has been very hectic lately n it has disrupted my booze to pump which effects my milk supply...but alhamdulillah i still managed to get 12 oz of EBM throughout the day for harris 's intake..however after much concern that my son mite not be getting enough milk..and as discussed with his paed..we decide to introduce a bottle of formula milk a day..which actually breaks my heart..(im sure exclusive bfeeding mothers know the feeling... im not saying that formula milk is not good enough) i was a result of formula milk n yes i managed to go to Uni n
all..but after much research, readings n discussion the iconic phrase we could conclude is the best gift that a mother can give her child is by breastfeeding them as it is complete for their physical and mental actual fact in the Quran says...bfeed our child for atleast 2 years..but being a working mother in a not sooo encouriging environment i find it hard...ive pumped in the toilet..(yup its yucky but i always think positive that god knows of my intention)..ive heard sneers..had the look from others wen i carry a cool box on course..hav people talked about me...arghh...the perception that people give wen ur just trying do wats best. .ive embraced them all...there were numerous times that i cry alone because nobody would understand..i do vent my frustration to my better half but there comes a point that he's a guy..his level of understanding on this matter is not in depths..n soo the thoughts r better placed in my head.....i guess these r the challenges that god wants me to hope that one day it will all be worth it... ...

I never knew that i could manage exclusive breastfeeding for a year at least..before having harris i always thought.. id bfeed harris for atleast the first six months..had i known.... i wud have prepared myself earlier..n i.. like many stumbled upon experiences n gathered our knowledge thru books n dr. google..i thank n owe it to harris previous babysitter..makcik normah for encouraging me..without her i don't think i could ever have done it...

The guilt feeling of having to supplement hits beyond my deepest core..even if its just a bottle a me paranoid..vain or watever..but it is a feeling that is hard to describe..i remember watching wardina being interviewed the other day on a baby show hosted by Daphne Iking n i quote "if u knew the benefits that bfeeding gives to ur child..u wud never want to touch formula...."..n though i dare not tell others in that way..but there is truth to what she claims...

My youngest brother was a product of exclusive bfeeding until 2 years..n for those who know him can straightly highlight the differences between him from me n imran..we're different in terms of empathy, stubbornness..n mb intelligence...mmg a lot of people wud say "sejuk perut mak mengandungkan idris" he has never created major drama nor hav i seen my mom been worried over him unlike me the drama queen or my 1st brother...

I really feel that the govt should really encourage breastfeeding n make it an act or something n that breastfeeding circle is cared for..we don't need to be treated as queens but sufficient enough that proper arrangements can be made in the office like having a breastfeeding room n most importantly understand that we need to pump frequently to ensure our milk supply sustains..after all it will benefit the employer by having their staff at bay n not always on MC or EL date alhamdulillah i only had to take one EL due to harris diarrhea n we referred him to SJMC..but other than that his fever n all cud be treated n not come to state of worrying....

Im just trying to give my son the all of the mothers out there. n .maybe if u feel formula is the best option n it works for your doesn't matter...but wen i face challenges from the outer circle it crushes me..because i will not do anything that will not be beneficial towards him...i know one fine day i will have to completely wean him..n i will dread that day..the bond that we share is what I'll carry with me as i know that from that day..comes the partial separation of a mother with her child..he will not need me as much..ill miss his cheeks againts my skin..his little hand playing with my shirt...ill miss that n for what its worth to harris... mama's sorry..i tried ever so hard to give u more..but i have to work n my working environment is not that encouraging..

And as i read n read about the fact that my baby mite not be getting adequate milk..i came across this ...most of the article i read states that by 18 months a child needs to be wean off from the bottle n be given milk from a cup...formula should be replaced by whole milk to ensure a balance diet n while most parents opt giving their child milk to replace his meal intakes because the child refuses to actually does more harm to toddlers/infants as it can lead to iron deficiency...

taken from

Iron Intake

It's important to watch out for iron deficiency after kids reaches 1 year of age. It can affect their physical, mental, and behavioral development, and also can lead to anemia.

To help prevent iron deficiency:

  • Limit your child's milk intake to 16 to 24 full ounces (480-720 milliliters) a day.
  • Increase iron-rich foods in your child's diet, like iron-fortified snacks, meat, poultry, fish, beans, and tofu.
  • Continue serving iron-fortified cereal until your child is 18 to 24 months old.
So watch out coz u don't feed on demand milk after the age of one n milk is to supplement his growth..but not to be treated as primary food...

Im sure u guys have 101 percetion..assumtions..comments on this issue specially those with before i ur M16 hits me..just take note that this is what i gathered from my reading..observation..discussion with paed n lactation consultants..i don't simply pluck these ideas from the sky...