My aunt just got back from Jakarta Bandung trip...accompanying her husband...i met her last saturday..as she came to send my grandmother to KL..my late aunt takes care of my grandma most of the time....since my grandmother was in KL..i told hubbs that i wanna visit her..we spent a few hours there at K.fazidah's place...im soo glad that i did..because that was the last time we chatted..she was fine..nothing odd or so...she left for Johor to my parents place the coming Monday as the flight was from Senai....
They came back last Friday..n my parents fetch them at the airport..dad told me that makpon (we call her that) had a fever n was very weak..they took her to a clinic that nite n the doc ruled out that she may hav had a major food poisoning...Come saturday..my uncle wanted to go back to Muar...so off they went..she was still weak..all of her children cam back that nite....most of them arrived in the wee hours in the morning..they knocked on her door..she opened..although she was weak...they decide to take her to the hospital the following day (Sunday)..n she was admitted..she was sedated..doc said that she has very critical pnemonia which had effected her kidney causing it to not function ... come nite her Bp was very low so the doc gave her the strongest medicine to try and push the Bp back up..by then all my aunts n uncle had gone back to Muar...feeling uneasy i contacted my cousin..to car pool with them as hubbs had an urgent matter to attend to that day...but before we cud even begin our journey back...
She left us all at 8.55am..i was on my way back home wen i got the news..i felt dumbstruck...numb.and..speechless....till now i can never swallow the fact that she's gone forever...
I miss her..n can never begin to imagine how our raya wud be after this..she was the core of our raya..our family celebrations..she was always there behind every event in our family..Muar means her delicious food on the table...her laughter n smiles fills the hse..her images dances in front of me everytime i think of her..i miss her soo..sooo much..she's like another mother to me...a referral to my mom n aunts..a guide to cooking for all of us..n now shes gone...the hse instantly seems sooo gloomy..sooo sad..they'll b no more of her wonderful cakes n biscuits...
however the saddest part of all was wen her real mother came..my aunt is actually Chinese by birth but given to a malay family...some years back.. they reunited..but i guess after soo many years it was very awkward for her n the mother to reconnect...the mother came wailing by her jenazah..
" mama datang..mama datang" wiping her face with handkerchief...
(it was a real drama swasta moment for us...)
thou thru all the sadness..im glad that to see the masses of turnout for her funeral..it was a sea of people...almost everybody in our huge-huge family came....glad to see that she had rows n rows of jemaah for her sembahyang jenazah..glad to know that her last breath was with by her two sons..her last breathe exhaled was just after her sons had finished reciting the last verse of yassin...glad that she didn't suffer long...and glad to see the her eldest son lead the jenazah prayers ...yup..mmg sejuk perut ibu mengandung..knowing that u raised such a son...it just hits me to my deepest core...i hope that Harris will one day be able to do the same...being able to lead the last prayer for me..means a lot...i hope u guys can encourage (including myself) n prepare ur husbands..brothers especially those eldest to do the same for their parents...it may be the best gift they can ever receive..even though they cannot see it virtually....
In loving memories..of Hajjah Nyapon Hj Abd Wahab....u'll b greatly missed..i really really miss u..n hope Allah tempatkan Makpon dikalangan yang beriman...amin...
Alfatihah..
p/s thank you to my parents inlaw for coming all the way from JB...
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