Thank you...

Dear friends..thanks for all the well wishers….and to friends who came to my wedding..thanks a million..kay,ika,rozie,k.chick,yantie,teejay,ma’da (I hope tak tertinggal sesiapa). I’m really sorry for my late response to all of your dear comments..baru naik kerja today...

Ive yet to have my honeymoon firstly sbb moving is our first priority..currently staying wif my SIL..cikpuanmuda ashwaa…n hubby (thanks a million)..will be moving to USJ6 most probably after raya haji..so ur all invited to my new small teratak….secondly ramai yg advice not to go honeymoon now as it’s raining near most of the places n x nak get caught in the floods...thirdly sbb duit dah bnyk habis..(heheh)... nak kena kumpul balik…

On my wedding cake topic…the top two layers is a dummy..only the last layer is real..we requested it that way..sbb xde sapa yg nak melantak cake banyak2..but the cake was sedap lah…

To sesapa yg nak tgk gambar2 aku..dtglah umah yea..i thk my photo album shud be ready after raya haji insyallah…but I’ll try to upload a few more for u guy’s viewing…4 this entry I’m uploading my photos taken by my bridal n rizal’s photographer pasted fron their fotopages.

p/s: but if u all have time..u shud come n watch my video nikah..it’s a must!!! Y??? watch it lah..then u’ll know y..heheh

preview of my wedding

juzz a brief update..

Im quite in the mood to update my blog today…a brief recap of wat’s been happening around my world…been soo bz distributing cards ie; mailing n by hand….till ths day..still got a handful to distribute..been constantly updating my checklist n budget list… in hope that nothing important will be left out n that I have sufficient funds to survive the aftermath of the whole celebration..heheh

Had my facial hair remove yesterday morning at an Indian beauty shop..using thread…ouch!!! It hurts speacially on the upper lip part..thanks to tasha for accompanying me.. i know its two weeks away..n the hairs are bound to grow..but thru consultation…it is wise to have it done first as it may cause breakouts n rashes..so if I do it now..it allows time for anything to subside..the lady owner told me to do eyebrow plucking as well….i declined…I’m sticking to doing it on the day itself.. …for facial..hmmm haven’t been to any beauty salon nor do I intend to..i thk im quite content with my RM1.30 beauty ritual..lathering my face with cinnamon once a week…I recieved a lot of positive comments since I started this ritual..even my boss asked me..heheh..i thk it suits my face..but I must warn u guys..not all skin types can undergo this self treatment..my friend tried it..end up MC for three days as her face swelled up..

Me & Weezal had hi-tea wif Mrs Kay n cheeky Jib @ the Curve…Jib was soo adorable..cheeky..rasa cam nak tarik2 je his cheeks..heheh..Kay was somewhat stunned upon seeing my new look…actually started during raya…Y? guess for me its time..god has given me a lot of things that most people only dream off..its just my way of trying to start a new life..the right way!!..insyallah…

4 days left to work b4 I start my holiday.... I have to vacate my room at home by this Friday..amidst all the hectic stuff im facing!!!..its soo tiring..i have eye bags that’s obvious..huhu an effect of..insufficient rest…I can’t dump my stuff at my new residence as the current tenant is still in search of a new place….i believe me n my weezal have to have the hse refurbish..thou im only renting it..we prefer to have the place nice n comfy…

I thk that wraps up my entry for this time…till I have time…take care..n do come to m reception guys..

Overloaded...

Life has been soo hectic..work has never been so overloaded…files are here n there on my desk..how I cannot wait for my long hols!!!…I know I won’t have much rest during it..but atleast I’ll be doing something else...instead of endless reports..checklist…meeting contractors…(i’ve met soo many of them to the extent I’m lost in identifying which company their attched too)..it’s embrassing sometimes wen they smile gleefully at u..adressing ur name..wen I cannot even recall wether I’ve met them!!! Duh!!!…but I guess it’s part of their job to acknowledge people that are beneficial to them…am I that beneficial??? God knows..hehe…

The news is loaded wif stories of Altantuya..not in the mood to elaborate..but one remark I heard was that my dear friends FIL..surely must be glad he’s out of the headlines…care to comment???...in a way it’s a good blessing in disguise that this Mongolian came into our headlines…at least my dear friend hubby and family can lay back…

On HAri RAya Open house..to my friends who invited me..thank you for ur kind invitation..and for those houses which I did not show up at..my heartiest sorry…been caught up wif endless family open houses n weddings which made my schedule very2 tight..i’ve yet had the chance to actually rest n get a good nights sleep…im beginning to get eye bags…Help me!!

Going back to JB ths weekend..to do fittings n final touch ups.. will be hoping to see some of you guys by next week..to littledewa..pls leave ur address in my comment box..n can someone also ask mayfa to do the same..thank you….till I hav the time to pour my heart out again..have a nice day....

p/s sayang..i cannot get my mind of californian rolls n sushi...heheh..yum..yum

Lost of Loved Ones

My heartiest condolences to Rozie for losing her beloved mother on 21st October 2006 and to Kay for the lost of her beloved grandmother...just to share with all of you, a poet written by Rozie's late mother Allahyarhamah Hajah Halimah Ismail, 3weeks before her passing...mailed to me by Rozie..

Al-Fatihah



Bila jasad dalam genggaman ALLAH
Bila hati dalam kekuasaan ALLAH
Bila lidah kelu tidak dapat berkata-kata
Air mata menitis mengenang
Segala nikmat anugerah ALLAH
Inikah suratan
Yang patut disyukuri
Yang patut dinikmati
Masa yang sebentar ini
Masa yang terhad ini
Mencari keredhaan ALLAH
Walau cuma sesaat sahaja……

May all of us always remember that life in this world is momentarily...and all given is non permanent...life after is for eternity what we do here determines our after life...

The guilt...

Today marks the 10th day of Ramadhan the holy month, how time really blast past us by each passing day…I ask myself what hav I done during these past 10 days of fasting???..nothing!!!..i’ve yet done anything to take advantage of this very holy month…maybe one of the reasons is because I’m on leave from fasting n praying..yet I still feel the guilt of not taking the opportunity to utilize the month to my limits….my dear atleast as much as he can, does try to make room for terawih prayers..me???I hope when im able to perform my fast n prayers again..god will guide me back on track n give me strong will to do a little extra in this month...with only 20 days left..

My absence from this blog my dear friends is due to the hectic schedule I’ve been juggling with..my work..my preparation..my fiancé..Everything has been sooo stressful..I see myself snapping on a regular basis nowadays (not that I’m proud of it!)..those close to me..please bear wif my undue typhoon. I just cannot tolerate when ppl try to maneuver my plan according to their preference when I do all the ground work..and for god’s sake..it’s my event..if it does not turn out nice..atleast I won’t blame others!!!!..the tense has turned me into a snappy MONSTER…my usual self is where I’d be considerate n flexible…that part of me seems to have crept behidn closed doors..i think it'll appear back into me only after my Big Day I guess…

Sometimes I feel the guilt of having rows with my parents..I just wish thy’d be more understanding n see things thru my perspective so that a lot more can be done..i hope whatever the outcome..everything goes accordingly and all will be happy…

My dear friends..

Calm down….here’s a consolation to all…U'd be surprised if u all knew how much im earning monthly…WAY…n I mean WAY behind all of u…but of course my perks I guess r a bit better than a lot of companies.…ie.medical,maternity,annual leaves..loans……and being a GLC company..is a bit of consolation in terms of stability..nevertheless.. there’s always a possibility thgs can go wrong..a clear example is MAS….i only can afford to pay not more than RM300 for my car installment …if not how would I survive?...i know some of u pay double than that amount monthly if not more…but at this moment that is all I can afford..on top of my monthly expenditures..study loans..petrol,rent..I still hav to be stringent in order for me to save up some $$ for my wedding…however I am thankful most of my wedding nicks n nacks are bared by my parents..n my dad still helps me here n there…plus another consolation to me is that my soon to be other half is a workaholic…striving hard to give us a better life…thanks sayang thou I don’t say it out often..i do appreciate wat ur doing….im not saying he’s the ideal man..but I am thankful that im not about to wed a lazy bum...with these back up is how I survive..as a woman I love shopping who wouldn’t..but in terms of clothes I only will buy, anything below RM35..above that to me is expensive..nevertheless there’s a lot of nice stuff I found during the Mega Sale period that met my budget ie British India, The Executive Parkson ..Metrojaya..F.O.S….im not saying im good at bargains..but to me if u want to have everything u have to be aggressive n search high n low…maybe u wont have the most expensive bags..shoes..jewellary..but atleast u’ll have a taste of each..maybe my pattern will change wen I hav kids…but to my dear friends my point is..where u work..u’ll stiil have problems…u’ll never earn more than u can spend…kids will always mean problems…even until their adults..look at ourselves!! Have we not been a problem to our dearest parents…men will be men..no doubt bout that!!..n however expensive clothes.. jewellary …shoes…accessories we don on will never turn us into a goddess.. buat / beli baju mahal2 pun merugikan diri u sendiri…sbb ppl only tgk u sekejap je wif it on..the rest of the time..its ur other clothes n wardrobe door that stares at it so bersyukur wif wat u have..ur never born a beauty queen so live wif that !!!ur nose, eyes, body, legs, bum will never be the perfect size..but atleast u hav them n their functioning normally !!!…set ur priorities rite..1/3 of hidup..for dunia..1/3 kebajikan..1/3 for amalan..insyallah..selamat dunia dan akhirat..(that’s wat my mum slalu pesan)…im no angel nor am I a miss goody two shoes…but im here to share my thots so that u all won’t feel that life is unfair to u…

DEALOVA...

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati tlah letih

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan-akan

Reff: kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yg memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada

Hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi

Selalu ada, kau selalu ada
Selalu ada, kau selalu ada

all this while penah dengar lagu ni..but never really concentrated
until recently..nice song..dedicated to those who r in love..hope love for us will stay n grow stronger by each passing day....

That Moment..

I’m not going to elaborate or add spice to what has already been written/reported in detail in the main stream media on Siti’s Solemnization…to me its official what more can we say…nevertheless I wish to capture one moment of the event that touched my heart….that was when she hugged her dad…all the composure she controlled thruout the event burst into tears upon hugging her beloved father…at that present moment only Datin Siti n En Taruddin knew what they felt …thou ppl can speculate 1001 assumptions…

Ive yet to hav that "moment"…the thot of it just really touches my heart deeply…wen ur solemnized…u begin a new phase of life..and leave a phase that holds soo much memories…ur no longer daddy’s gurl..ur actually on ur own..n u depend ur whole life after that on a man u call ur husband…whether he’ll be as responsible as ur father....only god knows...for me my relationship wif my father can be rated on a moderate level basis...thou I knew he loved me n vice versa as I was his only daughter...nevertheless it was never stated or voiced verbally often...but he was always there for me...financially and emotionally..even thru those torrid arguments I had wif my mum, my dad was always there to console both of us..thru my utmost bitter breakup..he was there..n I knew he prayed endlessly that I will find happiness…which alhamdulillah…at this point of time..i am happy wif wat I hav..althou its not much..but I am grateful...I remembered back when I was still staying at home...whenever I was sick n bonded to my bed..my dad never failed to send my meals to my room...he never did mind if I didn’t help clearup if I was having exams...ate whatever I cooked eventhou I'm a terrible cook..he ensures all my needs are fulfilled..even at this age...my dad still helps me out..eventhou I can stand on my own financially…he still pays for my car maintenance sometimes..my groceries when I follow my parents shopping...my fares if I travel...stuff like that...its not that im not excited to venture out a life wif my everdearest..its just that deep inside I’ll miss all those pampering..the attention..most of all I’ll miss being his gurl...I’ll belong to someone else..i know he’s still my dad..he’s still there..n I hope he will be there for as long as I live...it’s just gonna be different…n one thing I really hope I won’t do is..upon judgement day..i hope my dad will not suffer anything due to any doings of mine…bcoz to me..he has carried out his responsibility completely..in fact more..n if any wrong doings of mine is all bcos of me... never was it due to his inadequacy or negligence in educating me n completing me wif religious n moral values ...my tears r actually raining as I’m writing this..hehe...(sorry guys..im a bit emotional on stuff like this)..i love my dad..thou I don’t say it out loud to him..my mum too..but I’ll tell u all about my mum in another entry..i love them both wif all my heart thou I sometimes disobey them..n i know all they want of me is that I’ll have a good future filled with happiness..the rite way…

7 January 2006

ive received numerous request from anonymous readers ..n a couple of friends who'd like to view my engagement photos..so..im uploading a few for u guys to see...it was a very2 simple affair…nothing fancy...but if ud like to view all of the events photo...u hav to c me lar..heheh..no i did not take any photo's wif my dear weezal...(according to him his mum disapproves of him coming up to me..nanti my grandma's marah..hehe)..how time flies..7 months + has passed...

SPNB Charity Dinner

My company held a Charity Dinner at KLCC Convention centre (yup..the hall where siti n her beau will be holding their reception) last Saturday with Batik as the theme…supposedly as an appreciation to all the Contractors and suppliers who have donated their $$ for us to build houses for the very2 poor..at no cost to them…

Our entertainer for the nite was misha n amy search….suprisingly it was Amy’s first corporate function…I thot he'd done tons...so he was actually nervous at first…halfway thru...he was back in form n was very2 entertaining….applauds to him..misha on the other hand to me was so so..also nervous but not that entertaining…she hardly interacted wif the audience……overall..not a bad funtion...

oh n a special thanks to my fiance’ for being patient wif me thru the “pencarian baju process”……..love u…ooo..ive pasted a few photos of the event…did I mention that the food SUc*S..from my personal point of view lah..or is it bcoz I had too much Chinese..last week pun, attended a charity dinner at JW Marriott..artiste:KAER...food much better….

when thgs happpen suddenly...

It was shocking…received two shocking news last Tuesday, firstly the Royal Princess who was attacked n killed by her own son was my SGM’s Mother in law….had encountered the wife on numerous occasions…the wife was pretty…guess she got it from her mom….then Hani Mohsin passed away…just like that..like..a wham bam gone story..just last week we we’re watching him on Roda Impian..giggling bout his partner..now he’s gone..forever..it goes to show how fragile our life is….n how ez we could go..whether he has unresolved issues..debts..love life budding..all left behind…n I too wept upon watching the prime time news…it made it even worse wen I heard he was an orphan n the only child..no wonder he doted on his daughter..she was his everything..his world...it made me think..what would it be like if it was us..who left that way…surely my amal is below average..amal jariah..definately x bnyk..hav no kids yet that can send prayers to me..yg ada dosa menggunung..god I hope he’ll take me wen im equipped….its scary…wen uve nothing to offer..yet we humans specially me..know that if we die..we hav nothing..but mcm tak reti2 nak equip kan diri..still dok sibuk2 cari eternal happiness on this temporary world..life after death x pikir pun..that is for eternity….on talks bout tiara having feelings for hani..i believe so..they had a life together..n their divorce was not a bitter one…so..deep down inside…maybe..n only God knows how deep…Al-Fatihah to Hani Mohsin 1965-2006…..

when thgs happpen suddenly...

It was shocking…received two shocking news last Tuesday, firstly the Royal Princess who was attacked n killed by her own son was my SGM’s Mother in law….had encountered the wife on numerous occasions…the wife was pretty…guess she got it from her mom….then Hani Mohsin passed away…just like that..like..a wham bam gone story..just last week we we’re watching him on Roda Impian..giggling bout his partner..now he’s gone..forever..it goes to show how fragile our life is….n how ez we could go..whether he has unresolved issues..debts..love life budding..all left behind…n I too wept upon watching the prime time news…it made it even worse wen I heard he was an orphan n the only child..no wonder he doted on his daughter..she was his everything..his world...it made me think..what would it be like if it was us..who left that way…surely my amal is below average..amal jariah..definately x bnyk..hav no kids yet that can send prayers to me..yg ada dosa menggunung..god I hope he’ll take me wen im equipped….its scary…wen uve nothing to offer..yet we humans specially me..know that if we die..we hav nothing..but mcm tak reti2 nak equip kan diri..still dok sibuk2 cari eternal happiness on this temporary world..life after death x pikir pun..that is for eternity….on talks bout tiara having feelings for hani..i believe so..they had a life together..n their divorce was not a bitter one…so..deep down inside…maybe..n only God knows how deep…Al-Fatihah to Hani Mohsin 1965-2006…..

Not soo Fairytale...

It’s been quite a while since ive updated my blog..not to say that nothing has happened during my silence..jus was not in the mood to blog…

I believe everybody in ASEAN knows that Siti is to wed..well it seems as d current No.1 news…honestly thou im not a fan of m’sia's pop darhling...it is soo frustrating personally for me, that she decided to choose that Datuk…really was hoping it would be Fazly…I know “jodoh” is in god’s hand but…her choice was clearly unacceptable….comparing to the Norjuma’s or Normala's scenario..their choices was sensible eventhou they married for the social status (pardon the pun)..this so called prince..erghhh!!!!!!!…has 4 adult kids..just divorced the wife..clearly bcoz of her(care to place a bet??) is not charming..n they do NOT...i repeat..do NOT look good together….

Ooo n they did mention that they want a nice cheerful unextravagent wedding…well can someone please clarify to me if ur wedding attire cost u a sum of RM150k…one table at the KLCC Convention centre will cost u atleast RM1.8k….u’ll be holding 3 events...whirl around town in a horse carriage…if that is called jovial cheerful n unextravagent..then what do u call a home base wedding for us commoners????

Im not an Anti Siti fan..nor vice versa..just that I really feel she ought to b wif someone better..what’s wrong wif marrying an architect /doctor/engineer…or anak raja mana2 pun…y that MAN… k lah..im gonna hang my comments…I guess let it be..its her life..doesn’t effect mine pun…but I symphatize her for her short sighted mind…enough of me B***hing…to all Siti’s fan out there…may the FORCE be wif u….

FORZA ITALIA...Zizou Who??

Italy won the World Cup 2006 as u all are well aware of I’m sure…Its Euphoric and I’m feeling ecstatic…to d extent Im wearing my brand new shoe which I was supposed to save till d end of this year….The gleefulness is in me..alas…they made it after much failures n ALMOST matches where they made it to finals but lost..(Usually thru penalties)..they now hold the cup of Glory…entering the world cup not being the favorites to win, having a huge scandalous problem back home…performing on a constant basis but nothing to shine about…until the wee hours of this morning (m'sian local time)… they won the biggest football competition on the planet…n on a personal note..they did it bcoz they believe in themselves...stayed united , intact and played all their games in a fairplay way..(atleast better than the way they perform in the previous tournament)…not many voted them to be in the Finals…but I guess nothing is impossible...wen u work ur way thru it…dreams do come true…but to make it happen u have to strive consistently…kicking Australia in the last 15 seconds during the Quarter Finals, to trashing Germans wif 2 goals within the last 10 minutes in the Semi’s to scoring a perfect penalty…w/o my hero Totti, Nesta, Inzaghi…what a journey!!!…”the never say die spirit “burned them all the way…I really2 hope that Totti would consider not to hang his boots yet…atleast until Euro 2008, the Italians need him...n I haven’t had enuff of him yet…

One funny thing I learnt is that France will be playing their qualifying match of Euro 2008 in the next six weeks..n guess who their opponents r???….Forza Azzuri….;-)


Zizou Who???? The one who ended his career with a RED card…what a way to end ur career...I’m sure everyone wants to know what Materazzi said/provoked to him which made him loose it..it must have been something very harsh for him to react in such…I believe he did it spontaneously w/o thinking of the effects of it…too late!!!!!….it took a while until the reff ELIZONDO Horacio showed him the red card….it was the fourth official that highlighted what he had done to the reff…it surely made me wide awake….he wasn’t sporting a good sportsmen’s attitude definitely…4 a man of his league n class...

To Trezeguet, it’s not ur fault France lost…the fairy godmother made a route to Roma instead of CHamp Ellyse it was just not ur teams nite….n u bcame the unlucky person picked not to have netted the ball…somebody’s got to loose…n that somebody was the FRENCH team….

I’m soo glad the Germans trashed Portugal 3-1...thier win alone made the atmosphere in the Stuttgart stadium as if they’ve won the Wcup…a job well done for Klinsmann’s team…n Serves Ronaldo rite losing out to Germans’s Lukas Podolski for the Youngest Player Award for his display on unsporting behavior over Rooneys exit during their clash…..

Whatever it is…the Tournament has ended…the Italians have been crowned the champions…..and what a world cup it has been….I'm loving it...

The Final Showdown

It’s a Friday…Fridays always lift up my sour mood of the week…the final showdown on World Cup 2006 will b ths weekend….really Hope d Azzurri will hold the trophy of Glory….will make sure I’ll drunk myself in endless coffee’s n cuppacino’s to keep me awake thru the finals..thank God it’ll be in the wee hours of Sunday morning…..

Am praying that Juergen klinsmann team will send the Portugal squad speechless on their flight home…I’ve never hated a team ths way..the sight of C.Ronaldo makes me sick….glad to read somewhere that he was booed throut his France game…hahaha France?? ..never ever fancied the French team..althou they have Henry..Zizou..n/theless hav nothing againts them..really hope the Finals will not lead to a penalty…Italy r a bit rusty n gawky in ths area…am praying that TOTTI will not hang his boots on International football after ths…I’ll miss him…

Then..it’ll be life after World Cup..huh..so soon?? Just getting into the mood…well good things have to end….it’ll b back to normal days..hav to wait another 4 years in S.Africa for the next WC.can’t wait for the Euro 2008..im beginning to like International football!! Hehe pun intended..my fiancé will be back wif his endless EPL matches..AF4 must be delighted the attention of m’sian viewers will b reverted back to them..dunno y..but I never can concentrate on the endless week to week concerts +diaries of them...nothing really triggers me to watch it..maybe it’s not my stuff..but I admit I will make a point to watch the finals of AF4…just for the fun of it..thou I don’t follow the series…my instinct tells me AF 4 is not as exciting n entertaining as the previous AF…care to comment anyone

To ITALIAN Fans….Hail The Azzuri’s………..

I'm in the mood....

I'm soo exhilarated that the Italians won the semi's....am overjoyed...a real consolation for my dismay wen England exited the WC...didn't watch the game thou..only knew this morning upon getting ready for work..did try to wake up during the match but...as i thot..my effort failed..too sleepy....can't wait to watch the replay ths evening...

Am hoping for an Italian VS France Finals...hope kuda2 tua tu will trash PORTUGAL..i'm an anti Christiao Ronaldo fan now after how he reacted over the dimissal of his team mate W.Rooney..hate his guts..it would be a nerve wrecking finals if my prediction goes well.....i have nothing againts the Germans thou...i do like them as a team..but Italy n England has always been my ultimate choice...

Thier win has lifted my mood today...as an effect i've posted 3 entries in a day...heheh...will definately try to watch the FINALS....

Baby i'm perfect for you

Stars ARE Blind

I don't mind standing sometime
Just hanging here with you
Cause I don't find too many guys
That treat me like you do
Those other guys all wanna take me for a ride
But when I walk they talk of suicide
Some people never get beyond their stupid pride
But you can see the real me inside
And I'm satisfied oh no oh

Chorus:
Even though the guys are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul in body
Let's see what this love can do

Baby I'm perfect for you
I could be your confidant
Just one of your girlfriends
But I know that's not what you want
If tommorow the world ends
Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love
Not someone who have you been dreaming of
Why am I alone oh no

Chorus:
Even though the guys are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul in body
Let's see what this love can doBaby
I'm perfect for you
Excuse me for feeling
This moment is critical
It might be revealing
We could get physical oh no no no

Chorus:
Even though the guys are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mineI can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel tooGot a heart and soul in body
Let's see what this love can do(Let's see what love can do)
Baby I'm perfect for you
(Baby I'm perfect for you, you)
(Baby I'm perfect for you)

Even though the guys are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
Even though the guys are crazy
Even though the stars are blind

it's cathcy..i hav to admit...a simple song...relaxing..the fact that it's sung by MISS PARIS HILTON..just adds d extra edge to it...(whatever!!) i like it..n so do many others who don't wanna admit it...just bcoz it's by PH....imagine if it was by Britney or Miss Moore...

photo's that could not be uploaded...

as usual..been trying to upload this photo in my previous entry...but to no avail...guess my photo's could not fit into the poshes poised couple..hehehe..soome ppl may hate them (the becks'ams) but i just love em....heheh..they're very Poised in thier own way..

When ur hopes are shattered.....

Watching England exit the world cup was the toughest moment for me..(as of the current WC standings)….twas thru penalty “their omen” as statistic’s have proven..England r never good enuff wen it comes to this..n wen Lampard missed..the squad knew they were headed for Doomsday…I’ve always been an ardent fan of England no matter what ppl say bout them…England has always been close to heart….watching Beckham weeping when he had to quit the field due to to his knee injury...it was soo touching not to mention his PC upon resigning to his captaincy…he was fighting n controlling his emotions...what is England w/o his captaincy?? What would the future hold for them wif the new Manager..n captain..Stevie G would be my best pick on to wear the armband... track records have proven…he can lead Liverpool .. from being trashed n trailing by 3 goals to nil to emerge as Champions of Europe in 2005 and his performance during the FA 2006 has made him a household name in the UK …on whether Rooney deserves the Red Card or not…I rest my case..maybe he flew in rage…but it shud be a yellow..n/theless the reff has decided, the game has long past n the team have already safely landed in England…what shud be or mite hav been is only the talk of fans..my prayers however, is that they will perform better in Euro 2008…amin..

Consolation for me was wen the Brazillian’s were also sent home thanks to Henry..atleast the French proves that experience n consistency beats anything specially d Giants of Football who hav a line up of the most skilled soccer players on the planet ….as comparing to a team wif “soo past their time players”….nevertheless I still have my Azzurri team to vote n cheer for..hopefully ToTTi can bring it on tonite…I won’t stay up to watch the game thou...too late f/more i know i won't b able to wake up the next morning if i do so..so im hoping for the best n keeping my fingers crossed..

Had a futsal of our own last Sunday…wif my fiance’s cousin’s n his Boss…its becoming a fortnite event…n we’re enjoying it thou I played liked a jerk..(my own assessment) hehe..had fun thou…here r some pic’s of the event…

FAbuLOUSA Francesco Totti !

The Azzurri marched foward to the quarterfinals of the world cup..yeaH!!!!!!!!!! thanks to my all time fav Totti....he was the life saver...but yes i really2 pity the Aussies..with only 12 seconds to go...they were forced out of the WC in such a way..hats off to them..a well played game..but i guess thats life.. u win some u loose some..but it was dam hard to loose it that way..as they say S**t happens w/o u knowing why....if they won..id vote for them all the way..a very good underdog.... bye kewell...the aussies were astonished..speechless..who wouldn't only 12 seconds till xtra time...wif Italy down to 10 men..yet...defeat was thiers..

on a personal note, i didn't thk that the italians played a great game..a lot of fumbling here n there..n so did the england tema in all of thier WC 206 matches..i guess lady luck is still hovering over them..n with most of the italians facing a scandalous charge...for match fixing..wondered how they manage to concentrate...but my heart is with them GO ITALY,ENGLAND....oo n GERMAN..

No More Textiles...

Ths photo has got nothing to do wif my weekly tell tale...just that ive been trying endlessly to upload ths photo..which was supposed to be uploaded in my "exhausting weekend"entry..dunno whether the problem is me/pc/network or the blogger system itself..but it drove me nuts...

Well another weekend has passed....n another hectic one also...my parents had been in town since last weekend..so i had to overnite at Bangi.. on Saturday...upon arriving mum couldn' wait to tell me bout wat goodies she found....hmmm she was on the verge of exploding with gleefulness..(as long as she's happy..)

Then we all went to the famous textile store in Ampang..was stuck there from 6pm till almost 9pm..my dad n bro was sooo bored they actually doozed off on the sofa..

Next day went to Macy..again we were stuck there around 3 hrs...i can proudly announce that im fasting from looking at textiles for now..had enough!!...duh..unlike my sister outlaw who cannot get enuff of them kan..azra..(hehe)...after attending to my parents..continued my shopping spree with my fiance'...at KLCC..n yesterday was his day..everything was about him..so dear..we're fair n square..u got ur day also...one funny thg was the lady that attended to us at HB..new exactly my fiance's taste..wat he wud go for..n wat he dislikes..hhehe..very funny..she can read my dear very well n..NO for u guys out there wondering..they don't know each other...she's almost our mother's age..if not younger..has a daughter studying in Dublin..we had a nice chat..n she's very friendly..not like the common high end sales person who will oogle n scan u from top to toe...kot yea pun ktorg ni look like ppl w/o money..takyahlah nak stare..n stare..f/more..u pun makan gaji je kat situ..heheh

the media is sooo Obnoxious bout Siti n DAtuk K..bored pun ada...i mean..wen she's ready she'll announce..i thk they shud give her some space..personally i don't fancy Siti wif him at all..but who am i to judge or comment..its her life..let it be....

testing..testing

testing..testing..my office server is driving me nuts..i can't seem to view what i posted..but ppl outside can...

exhausting weekend....

it's just one of those mornings when continuing ur sleep seems the only option (u wished for)...its gloomy outside..no sunshine..u cud hear the pit pat of the rain drizzling..the air is soo refreshing..snuggling under the comforter..it just feels heavenly..until the phone alarms chants a stooopid song... its 7.15am..n u HAVE TO GO TO WORK....i dread that thot...so cursing silently wif eyes half shut...i march my way to the toilet..grabbing my towel n nearly banged my face on the toilet door..aaah..reality hits..n its only Tuesday...

what have i been up to these past few days...to sum it up..was unwell most of the days last week n so was my dear fiance'....he was worst..had fever for days...attended b'day party for a 4 yr old..my fiance's nephew...went back to Bangi...my aunt n family finally came back from UK for good..(i presume) so there were ton's n ton's of ppl who came..n the fact that Bangi is my parents retreat home a.k.a 2nd home....made the hse incomplete at catering a lot of ppl..i was at the verge of passing out..as my company held our Sports Carnival that day n i played netball (ppl always expect u can play wen u hav the height)...n during the finals it downpoured..after halting the game for sometime the reff decided to continue n we played in the pouring rain..we were practically wet all over..so tired from that n had to continue attending to ppl that nite made me abt to collapse..thank god i had a very helpful bro..one u can rely on..the other one u can rely on wen its abt having fun..ths one..ill give two thumbs up..he did the washing..n was very2 helpful...if it were'nt for him id had surrender immediately...

next day...after patiently waiting for melody which i normally pass... i had to watch it as the golden celebrity couple had split up..n r in the midst of divorcing..who else mr yusry n erra ler...its just sooo saddening wen a perfect match just could'nt bear to live wif each other anymore...what went wrong????? please tell me someone???...n the fact that their facing the process together..makes it all soo painful..it was calm..yet ...throbing...the scenario was as if yusry was nursing erra after a major operation or heading home after a miscarriage...but reality is ...they're goin thier separate ways...n only they know y..i know a lot of ppl want them back 2gether..me inclusive..n yes the chances r there..but from my point of view n after much reading...the problem was inflicted by yusry side..n if they were to reconcile..then it has to come from him as he who made the decision to end a fairy tale wedding...but that's only my point of view.. a lesson for me..n all couples getting married....yes we want a perfect fairy tale wedding n will go to the extend of giving our all..but its not that that'll keep u togother..not how much ur dowry cost..or how big the rock on ur finger is n how extravagnt gardenly beautiful ur wedding is...its the communication n attention u give each other is wats important in order for u to stay intact...as they (yusry n erra) have proven...a dowry of RM33,333.33, RM 100k ring..d most extravagant wedding wif endless guest....cud only make it by the 2 yr mark..not even reaching 3..so ppl can comment how or wat u buy..how u look...n how ungrand or simple ur wedding is..but its not them who has holes in the pocket..or who emptied thier accounts for ur event...its u..so..do it reasonably n most importantly pray Allah will bless ur union...

b4 the hectic weekend ended...had a family affair futsal..wif my fiance's cuzzie...later attended my sis outlaw hubby's suprise bday party... a curtain fall for my tiring weekend...here's a photo of me n fiance at the party.....

im walking on air..

Did i have a good weekend?? gladly yes....it was a really good weekend...thanks dear..went for the promised shopping stroll..along wif sis outlaw +hubby...it was really fun as most of the stores at Ground Level KLCC were giving out a nice discounts .... we picked up a few items..then we went shoe shopping...was very2 proud of my purchase found the PERFECT shoe for my BIG day at SW..the perfect colour,size n price tag n it was the last piece..a BIG smile was plastered on our faces thruout the day...thou i do pity my dear fiance' he couldn't find the perfect shoe...we all semua dpt...xpe syg..nanti the'll b a time wen we all come back empty handed except for u...

My fiance' bought me a fabulous F... Bag...it was sooo damn nice..thanks honey...wish could use it now..hehe...

England won the match againts Paraguay...althou it was an own goal by Carlos Gamarra...thou they won i didn't think it was a great game n it wasn't half as entertaining as the German Vs Costa Rica game..as they seem to be stumbling..n could not seem to find the perfect finishing..my heart goes to Mr. Crouchy as he seemed to be marked by the Mexico reff..everytime the ball touched the England Robot the reff could not spare him..it was always fouled..if i were him i would hav been P**ed too..luckily he had enough will power not blow his top off...i believed it would b another different situation if it was Rooney...Nevertheless England also recived great news as Trinidad tied Sweden on a goaless draw ..which made them over the moon(Trinidad and Tobago)..so a smooth cruise for England in GROUP B (hope so..unless England create another blunder in the next 2 matches... oo i read sumwhere that Posh Spice bought along 60 sunglasses to complete her style in Germany(Whoooo...i wonder how she's ever gonna pout in all of them if England sails out of Germany before the 2nd round..pity..pity)

My mind is not at peace as i've been eyeing this Gucci Bag i saw during my weekend stroll...its a simple casual black hbag..but the fact that the price was tempting made it a part of my restless dream..heheh..but i don't hav the budget..or do i??..i hav to refrain myself althou it is too tempting...HELP ME!!... I need the xtra bills to settle my preparation..but the thought of that bag doctorine's in my head...n wud hav to wait till year end for another sale..i presume the handbag wud be gone by then....i know u guys wud say its too simple..but its nice to me..a girl needs more than one casual black bag..don't u agree??..help...

The power of the BALL...

It's the end of the week...YOHOO!!...a week that i can rest w/o having to go anywhere..except shopping perhaps...(dear..u were ok to this idea..so hope u don't go back on ur words) so hopefully if all goes well..will b doing my fav past time tommorow with my fiance'...heard all of the melium group is on sale..so must grab ths oppertunity!!!..

Tthe WOrldCup will kick Off tonite...so gurls..if u can't beat ur men to the remote..mite as well pour ur heart n concentration on the event...afterall..it's only once in 4 years..if u minus out the EURO CUP...if ur completely blind to the game..then u can oogle at the players.. fair line up of hunks r playing..(oopss sorry dear..ur still my number one ..kwik..kwik) ..ballack(who i don't fancy..) nesta..totti..boy wonder stevie G..inzaghi..henry..KEWELL (my pick..cute..) and everybody's bloke...MR.D Beckham..to name some..

so wat's ur pick on the Finals?..mine..GERMANY VS BRAZIL...Nevertheless..my flag n cheers will go to my 3 all time favourite team..The Azzurri, England & Germany..but i do hope England can advance atleast to the Semi's.. they seem to be performing..somehow they always know how to trot out early in BIG EVENTS..hope ths time it won't happen..

So to all the FOOTBALL FANS & MANIAC on this globe...LET THE GAMES BEGIN..btw..Don't u feel how ironic this event is..everywhere in the world..all eyes (men especially) will be glued to numerous games of Soccer..watching highlight..comments..repeats..sigh..sigh..n yes gurls..u'll be 3rd in line to ur man's attention..after the FIFA WC 2006, his all time fav a.k.a his car...as always..duh!!

Family Day

it's been quite a while since i updated my blog...too lazy to update i guess..for the past week or so..my life has been evolving around a boring routine of work n home...n attending to my dear fiance'(ok dear i'll refer to u as ur suppose to be known)..god sometimes i wish i could just switch my career path totally...wouldn't it be nice to b a boutique manager of a designer label..aigner or Hermes perhaps...oo i wouldn’t mind tiffany& co also..if only !!!

everyone in my office seems exited about our coming family day which will be in Langkawi..me on the other hand mite not be going as i dun thk i need anymore activities that involves pouring out my pocket which apparently has holes...BIG BIG HOLES…so no more holes need to b added.. atleast not at this particular moment...f/more my Big Day is nearing n i've yet to salvage the amount i need…so i think i'll hav to pass althou family days r fun..(based on previous experience...) nmind..can go next year n bring along my then confimed other half..insyallah

The answer to all my why's.......

The truth is, I know now in my older age why he didn't stay with me that summer. Because he loved me, but not enough. Because he loved me too much but wasn't ready. Because I was probably his first, deepest love..

i found this while browsing thru a blog...n suddenly the words echoed thru my head.. my past experience flooded clearly thru my mind....maybe...maybe..this was the cause of my misery...and the answer to my loonging question...but alhamdulillah.......thru hell ive been..god gave me the happiness i never dreamt for..which i hope..will last till the end of our life...of course i know they will be hiccups along the way..i hope..god will help us pull thru it...to my man..if ur reading this...i love u..very much..althou i know i can be a pain sometimes...thanx for putting up wif me...

To all men, understand this. Women always know if you fall in love with someone else. And often times, they know even before you do. It's in the tone of your voice and the things you don't say.And women, know that your instincts are always right. In a cruel twist of nature, the reason you possess that clarity is because you love him down to your bones. And it will break your heart. It will seize you with fear before you understand why you are frightened...."a quote from a persons blog......" which to me..is well said...down to the very last word....

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went karaoke'ng wif my colleuges ysterday...initially for 3 hrs...but extended..to 4..so u cud imagine my voice now...smpai out of songs to sing..hehhe..i really thk u guys shud check out the Red Box Ria..at SOGO..it has a warm n friendly concept for family karaoke'ng...not the usual gloomy scenes that gives u a shrill when u enter the place......it gives u an array of tit bits n drinks..our package included dinner..so u could dine n sing..(which actually is not a good idea coz u'll definately won't be able to sing properly on a full stomach....) but overall i'd give the place a thumbs up for the concept of family karaoke'ng ..(i sound like the marketing exec of REd Box..hahah)

was caught up in a bad traffic ths morning....while cursing silently at the police who to me was not communicating well with the other police traffic..i came across a nice banner..reading DEBENHAMS SALE... Wow wee...just what i needed..hehe..im actually trying to find the PERFECT SHOE for my Big DAy...found a candidate at Chairman..but i know Debenhams has a nice selection of SPECIAL OCaSSIOn shoes n bags...hmm..tommorow is a FRIDAY...ample time for me to check out the place during lunch time..sometimes..i am grateful i work in a GLC company...hav ample benefits..specially a long lunch break during fridays...

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Kamu...

Nitrus - Kamu

Oh mana bidadari
Yang turun dari kayangan
Indahnya yang tak berbandingan
Terasa bagai disentuh bayanganmu

Sesungguhnya kamu
Terang bagaikan cahaya
Yang menyinari hidupku
Dikala ku kelam..
kelamTerciptalah akuTuk kali pertama

Dan akanku buktikan
Kesungguhan dari hati ini
Hati ini..

Umpama bidadari
Kau selalu menenangkan aku
Biar kadangku terkeliru
Izinkan aku menyentuh bayanganmu

ths song has been bugging us for a while..everytime we tune into FLY.FM it manages to be aired...my dear seems to like the song..catchy tune..somwhow i got hooked to it also..we thot it was a Indon song turned out it was from a local band called NItrus....nice song..

yawn..yawn..yawn..

how tiring it was.. ths previous weekend...it started wen my flight bact to JB was delayed..arrived in JB at almost 10pm..it was not a pleasant flight as i.. (according to my dear) choose the wrong seat..which was at the back of a lady with her two giddy kids..throughout the flight, one of the kids a boy around 3 yrs of age ( i assume) could not sit still..n to to add spice to the story..my dear didn't like kids that are hyper...n ths boy went to the extend of nudging my dear..which made me react in a funny way..of course we couldn't scold the boy...the mother didn’t do anything to control the boy..he was frantically pushing all the buttons he could lay his finger on....luckily we arrived safely w/o anymore of the nudging....of course i was given the little pep talk of "i told u to sit somewhere else...c wat happens wen u don't listen..bla.bla..bla..by my dear.."

Heard that a dear friend gave birth on Thursday..Congratulations...but didn't manage to visit her thou i was in JB...will try to make a point on my next 'balik kampung trip'...

Mum n dad was ok..alhamdulillah...my youngest bro manage to turn my room n the family hall into a P'* sty..heheh..he was on semester hol..n was up to the idea of giving his room a new facelift..arrived in KL at 6.30pm yesterday...watched The scholar for the first time..very intresting..wish i was as brilliant as the contestants...then continued to watch astro's drama starring M RAjoli..W. Maimunah..which led me to sleep after 12am..n that contributed to my yawn..yawn morning....

Chocolate Craving...

it't that time of the month...the time that i crave for cHocolates....haven't had any appetite lately..dunno y..nothing to do wif life...life seems 'A'ok..alhamdulillah....how nice if i recieved a small goodie bag full of PATCHI chocolates....thou i still think its damn ridiculous to spend RM100 on a 100gm of chocolate...it would be nice...hehe

watched grey anatomy last nite..got hooked...slept quite late last nite..ended.. up had 2 practicly force myself to wake up this morning..grabbed a baju kurung that need no ironing (come to thk of it.have to buy more kain that's crease proof!!) n dashed of to work just in time before the time clocked 8.46am..thank god!!

Heard Barca won 2-1 the Champions League...a tough team to beat..but somehow had a feeling that Arsenal gave thier all..care to update me anyone??? will be on leave tommorow...yeah!!..n whizzing off back to JB..hav to visit visit the tailor....s**t its nearing end of May..how time flies....
wanna go to s'pore....but my dear..x buat passport lagi...hopefully he can do it in time for the great s'pore sale...(as if i have money to burn during that period..but hell..my hobby is window shopping!!...) it's been ages since i've been over the tambak...last was during the time tsunami hit S.E.A....i was bzz..window shopping wif my bro's wen more thousands n thousands of people were fighting to stay alive...how eerie...it just goes to show...how Majestic GOD is above Human kind...he can make some people happy..some suffering..some fighting...all at the same moment...

A Cup of life...

Liverpool won the FA cup YEA!!!!!!!!! thanks to thier HEro Stevie G....He was sUperb..n so was his goals....on the other hand was dissapointed on the outcome of the Spanish GP...Kimi 5th n Montoya out...another not soo good outing for Mc Laren...

i had a so so weekend...but did get the xtra beauty sleep i was yearning for....did'nt get to go window shopping as my dear had to work on Sat Nite...which meant that he spent the entire sunday sleeping....uwahhhhhhhh sedihnya...

watched abby n norman on melody....sedih plak tgk diorg...hope they can have a better future after ths....everybody akan di duga...b4 marriage..after marriage..yg bole kita buat..berserah n pray ours wont b as bad so that we'll be able to pull thru....

can't do much blogging today as i have deadlines..so till then..cheers

yeah..a long weeekend........

its..4.26pm...another hour or so..till the end of my working week..n off to a long weekend..yeah!!!bestnya..get to xtend my beauty sleep..as waking up early in the morning has always been my worst enemy...wish i could work in an office that starts at 10am..that'll give me plenty of beauty sleep n can breeze my way to the office....arhhh..if only...

so wat will i be doin ths weekend?? hmm...haven't planned nything yet...but surely will want to do a little window shopping..(i know my man will dread that...) but hey..ive been dragged to his endless futsal's n soccer game so..i think i deserve a shopping trip..occasionally...don't u agree??
o i almost 4got..he's got a soccer game tommorow....

Liverpool will be playing for the FA cup this weekend...a game that must be watched!!...Hope they crush West Ham...it was just not thier luck to clinched second place...maybe due to thier inconsistency last season...i really hope they sell off Cisse..think he's a waste..nway to all the the liverpool fans...U'll never walk alone...cheers!!!

Why iS iT...

i'm staring blankly at my off pc..have Tons of work with deadlInes..but my mind is elsewhere..its freezing in here..my mind is numb..my fingers r blue...wonder how the hell these ppl can stand the aircond here..its pouring outside..wish i could snuggle under a warm duvet!!...im sounding as if im in a cold climate country..rnt i??..well as cheesy as it sounds..i can't stand the cold..yup..me..can't stand the cold!!!...dunno how i manage to survive during my early birth days in that bloody cold climate!! mum must have wrapped me with tons n tons of blanket..

WeNt to IsEtan yesterday...hate KlCC during weekeNds...so yesterday there were no crowds n parking was soo easy...Supposedly went there to buy my soon to be other half' s shirt....but as i thot..he opted for another brand which was not on sale..y ahhh?? all the nice clothings..material..gadget..stuffs..are all in th NEW ARRIVAL section..n of course wen u asked

"xscuse me miss..is there any discount for this?? (smiling gleemingly hoping for a miracle)

"aww..sorry miss..that one new arrival..no discount..the one over there got discount.." (yeah i know but i would'nt be holding ths one if i was intrested in the shirts on d discounted racks!!)...

So had to pass ..the shiRt was sooo Nice but the Price was a BOMB!!... considering the fact that it was just a shirt..Luckily my dear understood my budget..so..we discussed..n decided to wait for the end of season sale..hopefully by then the shirt will be discounted..(im keeping my fingers crossed..) i knew he really liked it..i did too..(sigh..sigh..) better luck next time..i hope...

We went to the bedding section and fell in love with the display set...wen asked the price..OMG!!!!!!...RM729 for a set of fitted sheet+two pillow case+quilt cover..(w/o the quilt)...i could by 7 comforter sets with that amount...but it was Soooooooo nice..ud want to be in bed under the covers if u saw it too...come to think of it..i should put that on my wishlist..who knows..if it rained $$$$ that's a must buy for us..hehe..as for now...we'll keep dreaming...

the First time....

well..here goes...


i never thot id b one of those gals..blogging bout thier life for other people to share...analysing...reading ie; browsing ppls blogs or cunningly posting comments is relatively my kinda thingy..but blogging...ermmm don't think so....but as ppl say..u don't know anything until u've tried..n to have a fair share of wat it feels to share ur thots..i guess here goes..n im timing how long i can consistantly keep something i started....so hopefully this entry won't b my first and last...hahhaha...period!..